My innermost thought & feelings

HIM

Have u ever fallen for someone so deeply you couldn't breathe but you never even kissed the person but u fell anyway and you didn't realise it until they left and forgot about everything you guys did all the secrets and games forgotten the late night conversations about life forgotten. But then one day he gets a girlfriend and he tells you about how amazing she is, about how much he loves her, how beautiful she is and all you can do is suck it up and smile, so you pretend it doesn't hurt and bury the feelings deep inside and go to the next guy who was this tall handsome guy you met at a party, and you force yourself to fall because he is perfect and eventually you forget about HIM and you keep creating these fake feelings for this guy that was there at the right moment so you become vulnerable and let him bear your heart but he goes to your bestfriend and you thought it would hurt but it didn't you never felt anything not even a tear but what does happen is you remember HIM and cry and realise that he is the one that had your heart all along that you can't choose who you give your heart too and it kills because you haven't seen him in yrs but you still remember and feel it and then after two yrs two long yrs you have a dream and it was powerful and strong and it was you and HIM and a kiss just one kiss and a tear and the next day you see him in the flesh after 2 yes he is right there and you can't even talk to him but you feel his eyes burning holes into your skull for hours and your too pussy to say anything and you know you blew it because he was right there 1 meter away staring at you like you were the only person in the world but u pretended to not notice so instead you were focusing on your dead iPhone waiting for your cousin to arrive and by then u walk off never to see HIM again.

-Onetimelover