Smitten

chapter 3

farewell

As I finished the last chapter of my book I sat there at the side of my bed wondering if I should ever let her out of my thoughts, should I just shut down, should I just replace the thought with another overly sentimental book, or should I just forget she ever came into my life for both of us to finally accept that we won’t be able to comfort each other’s problems with small, short conversations.

I went to school the next day hoping that accompanying Hope would take my mind off a few things. I walked off the bus only to realize she wasn’t here, so I thought, well it looks a lot like there’s a good chance of me not doing anything at all. The day was going by so fast that I never realized that I didn’t say a word or even felt emotion. Some days just pass on that way, I think all this “stuff” is getting too deep into my head. Lunch came around, we had this big project in drama where we had to work with the graphical effects club in order to have a very convincing background for our end of the year presentation. This usually takes us months, one entire month is casting, planning, scriptwriting, assigning, props payments, and of course rehearsal starts as soon as possible.

I was using my laptop to try out some movies or genres to base this off of, but as usual the director gets that job, but today the director isn’t here. Rehearsals were to start in two weeks, auditions Friday, and casting next week. I guess I joined this club for a reason, it’s a very good distraction from my usual normal life, when I say that I mean it’s just very depressing and very much filled with forced smiles and fake emotions.

Going home was strange because on the way there I saw Hope, walking back to where ever she lived, with a boy that looked to be a year or two older than her. He looked like he was talking to her, and she looked supper pissed off at him. I got home and yelled out I was going for a bike ride, just so nobody would suspect where I was going. Well as a matter of fact I did take my bike but I tried to somehow crossover by Hope and figure out what was going on. I was just raised that way.

When I eventually found them I saw him grabbing her arm and starring strait into her eyes shouting, “FINE, GO AND BE WITH YOUR NEW CRUMMY LITTLE TOWN FRIENDS!”. At that moment I threw my bike down and walked straight up to him and before I could even reach him I felt trembling hands grab my left arm, “Hope”, I said, “It’s Ok Ben, don’t even try, can you take me home please..” she said while covering her tear filled face with the sleeve of her sweater. As we walked she finally spoke about him, “that was Kevin, my now ex-boyfriend, he came here all the way from California to try and convince me to go runaway with him”, “why would he do that?”, Because he thought I was going to cheat on him, or something, he actually said he owned me”. I got quiet after that. “how old is he?”, “he’s only fifteen, what did you expect me to do run away with a child, a child would have been better” she smiled, “yeah well you might be charged with kidnapping” I added, “imagine hearing it on the news, Child Kidnaps smaller child.” She said exaggerating her voice to sound more masculine. ”you see, you don’t need him, you got that weird sense of humor to keep you company!”, “well call me crazy, but that’s how I got into this mess”

I was never able to let such horrible things ruin someone’s day, so I asked her to come to my house and try to talk things over, but yet again she insisted that she had to go home. I dropped her off and found my bike soon afterwards. When I came home I thought “wow out of all things, she still let him come visit her?” my mom was still cleaning the house, when I got a text.

“dude, WTH did you do, where is Hope?”. i called Nicholas to ask him what was going on, the phone rang for only a few seconds," Nicholas, what's going on?, what do you mean wheres Hope, I just dropped her off ", " you better go back there Ben, something happened, something you did.", "what did I do?", 'I don't know, but you need to check this out, there's a highschool freshman outside her house, DUDE, get over here!". I turned off my phone and told my mom i had some homework to do at Nicholas's house, I took my bike and went strait to where ever Nicholas may be, I followed the shouting and ended up at Hope's house, I hid behind a house only peeking out when I felt like nobody could see me, I felt a presence behind me, it was Nicholas. "You scared the life out of me" I whisper shouted at him. "what do you think is going on?"i asked, "check twitter. nevermind here look, " he showed me this post,"that girl, Hope, isn't just who you think she is, she was, well, well known at her priveous school", "what do you mean", "what I mean is she was or still is a major flirt, you can't just find a very attractive girl and not think she has some dude wrapped around her finger", again i asked, "what?","this guy Ronald thinks this girl actually loves him, so does George, Daniel, and alot of other guys from her other school, I know you are friends with this girl and everyting, but I really don't think you should hang out with this girl anymore, I'm just wirried for you, I don't want you to end up like these guys, ok", "I guess so, but it's only for the best right?", "when was I ever wrong", "when you cheated on math and got caught."...

I went back home and greeted my mom, as I went upstairs i thought of how i was going to stop talking to Hope, I went to school the next day and decided not to tell her, she said hi happily, but i just ignored her and went to spend my day with Nicholas. Sorry Hope...