Smitten

chapter 4

forgive me

This girl you saw, a few days and a week ago and have gotten to know isn't just some middle school flirt, I can never understand what drives me to do this to myself and other people around me, i guess i already know once you date the guys, you already expect the friendship ends, and so does everything else, i guess it just makes it easier to forget somebody and even easier to stay mad at them and never think of the good times you had. despite the said long line of suitors not one has been the keeper of my heart nor my first kiss. Benevolent, what a strange name, almost as inspiring as the person who gave it to him. I want to change my life, my image, my ways, my sight.

 i walk through the hallways noticed yet not entirely, as i switch from building "a" to "c", I see Benevolent. exited as always when i see him, and how i couldn't wait to enjoy the walks and the dull, yet satifying conversations, i start waving my hand gesturing a hi, he seemed as if something bothered him, so i stopped and wondered what. he continued his path alongside his friend, I don't understand why can't people ever tell me what's going on or how they feel about me they just never tell me then they say it's my fault to be freaking out. All i ever want is to be understood, I'm not leaving this time, not for a long time, so I wont have to do what I have done before.

I just couldn't understand why? I went to my next class hoping, that maybe I saw it or thought it wrong, but for the first time in my life, I was right the entire time. why do people judge me for who they think I am, and when did they think that it's ok to do this to anyone.

"Stop, thinking like this, you need to stop.", I told myself, and repeated it in my head, maybe I should go back to being the person I was, smart, and knew what and how to deal with. I am puzzled, like seriously Math class here is pretty demanding. Mr. Hollander gives us assignments and projects that i can't see ever being possible. then I met, Him. 

"hey, do you have any idea what's going on?" He asked me, turned in my direction, sitting right beside me. "saddly, for you i don't, try her." I replied then pointed my pencil in the direction of a sleeping student."Well, that's mission impossible, so what's your name?", he FINALLY asked me after he was done laughing his heart out. "well you seem to have none of it right now, I'm Hope, and now who are you? Desperation?". I asked trying to give him a strait face at the end, but as always my face tends to give the MOST unattractive smile ever. "well, to your surprise that actually is my name.", he gave a serious look, then i gave a shocked impression," No I'm just pulling your leg, my Name is actually one of the most common of all handsome men.",he looked at me with one eybrow up,"It's Reid, I'm Reid-", "EXUSE ME?!, You are here to lern Mr.Laxon, not to entertain your schoolmates and distract them from the reason why they are here!", Mr Hollander said , not very serious, but still a threat. We stopped. Then I felt a nudge on my arm, He handed me a note, I took it of course, smilling of course, " meet me later after school I'll be in the auditorium, See you there. -Reid", he smiled as his continued to try his best at math. I smilled too.

I don't know what came over me, I guess I was exited about it, i tried my best to focus on my classe, but whenever my mind slipped away, I thought of Reid. Then I thought, where is the auditorium?, Oh My God!, I forgot about practice, maybe the auditions could wait. I mean isn't this other thing more important.

Then came time for lunch. "I'm sorry for all who are interested in the upcoming show, but there was a bit of a delay with the production team, and we have no audition script, but for now I hope you are getting your Grades up because I can't let you audition when your failing, not my orders, the principal's"  Mr. Douglas announced to all of us. he then went over to Benevolent, and he didn't seem very happy, but at least now I don't need to worry about missing the auditions anymore. 

After all my boring classes, I headed to the auditorium, which was next to the gym and had "AUDITORIUM", above the front doors. I came inside, I checked my watch and it was 4:15 PM, My uncle wouldn't mind me being late at all, I'll just say I had to be held in for some stupid reason like the class was too loud and we had to write "I will not be noisy anymore" on three pages or somthing like that. I sat on the stage and let my feet dangled  five feet off the ground, when I heard the door open. " Don't you you know you're not allowed here", I was shocked until I saw it was Reid, I Laughed and was relieved. "are you serious? we're not allowed here?", I asked with a little concern, "yeah, but don't worry about it, I come here to clear my head sometimes, which is all the time.", he said looking toward all the empty seats facing us, "well... what for?, What makes you come here?", I stood up and  joined him at the center of the stage, "I know sometimes, then I don't, The answers are simple, yet to get to them we do all we can", he said then glanced at me with that beautiful smile, " So, what's your story Hope?", he asked me as he walked toward me. " well, I'll just find out about that soon, but for now, I'm working on the content". When I was finished we had a great deal of silence and staring, while I was thinking of every possible thing to think or at least guess what would happen we came closer and we were face to face, and he was only centemeters away from mine, he then told me, " make sure this will start a beautiful chapter...". He kissed me.

I ran out grabbing my bag on the small staircase and ran towards my bike, then I slowly started walking, when I heard Reid, "Hope, I think I love you?", He smiled, my heart pounded as if it were to pop out of my skull and explode everywhere, "m-m-me too.." I replied before getting on my bike and finally headed home, as I got further, my heart went to normal speed and I smiled as I thought of what had just happened, "I was just kissed, For the Very First time", I reached Home and my uncle wasn't so worried about what time I was home, I was only 30 minutes late including the time it took me to get home. I went inside my room upstairs and just layed on my bed exhaling and full of Happiness.