I feel it everyday, it stays the same
It brings me down, but I'm the one to blame
I've tried to get away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?
Everyday I feel the same heart aching feeling.
It takes me away from reality. It takes me to a deep place in my head and thoughts. I gave tried to stay away from this place in my head. I have tried to stay in the reality of the world. But so far I haven't been able to sit tight and stay in one place for that long. And there's no one else to blame but myself for this. I keep going back and I keep chasing a dream that isn't mine. Everytime I try to leave and try to stop chasing this dream, I end up coming right back to it. I don't know why I keep going back to this pain and headache. I just am not able to stop myself, to sit tight in reality, to not go back to this deep place in my mind.
Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over , over and over
I try not to
I keep falling you over and over again. Even though I know shouldn't. I know it's bad for me. By I can't stop myself from falling back in love with you. You don't even try to do anything and yet you pull me back in. We may never have been together but you still make me wish sometimes hat I had never met you. Sometimes I wish that for the fact that I hate having feelings for you, knowing that they could never be returned. And I try telling myself that cita not healthy or good for me to be falling for you constantly. So I pull myself back out and hope that I will finally stay out. But then you pull me back in without even trying, without even meaning to, without even knowing that you are.
It feels like everyday stays the same
It's dragging me down, and I can't pull away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this ?
Everyday I feel the same tugging and pulling at my heart. It's the same heart aching feeling of my heart going back and forth between loving you and believing that I don't love you. My heart is dragging me down and it won't let me go. It won't allow me to pull away from the feelings I have for you. I try to pull myself back up from the depths of my mind, but my heart keeps pulling me back down and towards my feeling, not allowing me to lie to myself about my feelings towards you.
Over and over , over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over , over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over , over and over
You don't even try
Without any effort you pull me back in to you. Without any effort you pull me back towards you , even after I've convinced myself I don't love you. You put no effort into doing it, you don't even notice what you're doing to me or the effect and impact that you have on me. It's like an endless loop of me falling in and "out" of love with you. It just does not end. I keep getting pulled back into this deep place in my mind where I dream about you and me. Where I escape from the reality of knowing you could never feel the same. Of knowing that we could never be more than friends. Knowing that friends is all we will ever be.
So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head
I try to live without you
Every time I do, I feel dead
I know what's best for me
But I want you instead
I'll keep on wasting all my time
These thoughts seem to never leave my head. I can never leave this deep place in my thoughts. All these thoughts are of memories of things that haven't happened. They are the only things that make me feel alive. Escaping the reality of not having you in my arms. Escaping the reality of knowing that you'll never be mine, and of knowing that you'll never feel the same. I know that I shouldn't hold onto these dreams that are dragging me down. But I keep wanting you instead. I keep wanting these dreams that make me feel alive and happy. I keep wanting you. I keep on wasting my time chasing hopeless and empty dreams. I'm wasting my time chasing after an imaginary fairytale, my fairytale Prince charming.
Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try
I keep falling into this endless loop of madness and heartbreak. It never seems to want to end. You're always in there in the back of my mind. You just pop out of nowhere and pull me back into this cycle, over and over again. You never even try, you never mean to try, you never realize what you do to me. Over and over I'm telling myself not to love you, that all we will ever be is friends. And it's true. We will never be more than friends. For you said it yourself, not knowing the impact it would have on me. Even if you did know, you might have said it a bit differently. My heart breaks each day I see you and each day I don't. It breaks knowing that I won't be able to hug and kiss you and hold your hand. It hurts to know that I won't be the reason for that smile on your face. My heart breaks on the day's I don't see you, for I won't be able to see your smiling face. I won't be able to hear your voice or your beautiful laughter. I won't be able to listen to you make jokes or see you be dumb. I try telling myself to get over you and move on, that you'll never be mine and I'll never be yours. But my heart is too stubborn to listen. It does its own thing. It too stubborn to realize the truth, that it's not meant to be. But it keeps going back to you, even after I have somewhat convinced myself not to love you. My heart will keep making this same mistake over and over again, chasing these empty dreams and thoughts in my head. It'll keep dragging me to the deep place in my head where I keep these empty thoughts and dreams. It'll keep me from reality and moving on. My heart is too stubborn, to let me stop loving.
