I fell in love with a man. He pulled me to him without knowing it. He doesn't know that I have taken a liking to him. It's quite obvious that I'm infatuated with him though. I'm surprised that no one, especially him, hasn't noticed the way I look at him and steal glances of him when he's not looking. I really am in love with this guy.
I first met him when I joined my Taekwondo class in 2015. I had started out in the teen's class since I was only fourteen. He was a black belt, and still is. He instructs a lot of classes for his high rank. He was serious with me since I was the teen's class. But once I moved to the adult class, when I turned sixteen, he started to be more relaxed and started to joke around a lot more with me. He still teaches my classes from time to time since he is a quite a high rank. He's not there sometimes since he goes to school. Its 2017 and I still can't get over how I become all happy and giddy when I see him.
One of the things that I fell in love with, is his personality. He is very sweet and kind. He will take things seriously when he has too. In serious things, he doesn't joke around or mess around when he's supposed to be serious. But he can also be very funny and playful. He can make me laugh when I don't want to laugh. He can make me smile when I don't want to smile. He can make anyone laugh and smile really. When I had first met him, he was very serious with me for the first few years of knowing him. But after I'd turned sixteen, he became more lenient with me and more talkative.
I don't judge people based on their looks, but I fell for his looks as well. He has these green eyes that captivate me and engulf me into them. They remind me of the beautiful green pastures that one can only imagine about. The way he smiles at everyone, it could brighten up a whole room if they were in darkness. When he smiles, I smile. It's like the sun itself smiles when he does. His hair is a dark, but not too dark, blondish color. It reminds me of the sandy beaches that are found in paradise. His hair looks so soft that I feel like if I ran my fingers through it, it would feel like heaven.
I love that he's strong and can defend himself so he won't have to rely on someone else to protect him all the time. He may not look it to some people, but he can fight very well and protect himself from an attacker. He can move at the speed of lightening. It makes me think of how fast he would be to protect his family, friends, and potentially the one he's meant to be with. It makes me think that, if I was the one he was meant to be with, how fast he would react to me being in danger. How he would be able to fight off someone to protect me. How fast he would move to come to my rescue and save me.
I have realized that I'm so in love by the fact that I can't get him out of my head. I can't seem to go a day without thinking about him. I imagine us being together. I imagine him being protective over me and getting jealous when another guy tries to hit on me. I imagine him trying to comfort me when I'm down and myself trying to comfort him when he's down. I imagine what our first fight would be like and how we would make up and forgive each other for whatever stupid thing I did or that he did. Even when I'm busy with other important things, he just somehow manages to slip into my head without warning, and then I start smiling without even noticing.
He's stuck in my head all the time so much that I've dreamed about him. The first dream I had happened early this year of 2017. I was in a small school room with my teacher, who is a female, and him. She had to leave for whatever reason, and left him charge to watch over me. We started singing Evanescence "Bring Me to Life" together. We were laughing so hard at how bad we both sang. After school ended, we both walked out together, and suddenly he was walking my dog towards me in a neighborhood. When he got to me, he took my hand and we walked my dog together without a care in the world. We kept holding hands and stayed really close to each other. I was so happy.
Another dream that I had that helped me realize that I was in love, was when I dreamed about being in university with him. This dream happened about two weeks ago. This all happened in one day in the dream. It had been in the middle of the first semester, I had walked over to his dorm with my friends to say hi. When he opened the door and let us in, there was another girl inside the dorm. I immediately got jealous and left soon after, but my friends stayed. Later on, about an hour later, he texted me to come back to talk and to see why I left so soon. Once I got back there and he let me inside, we started to talk. He began to explain that the girl was his cousin and not just some other girl. It was just us two, so we had a heart to heart conversation and expressed our feelings for each other. After I left and went back to my dorm, my aunt was there and asked where I had been. Once I told her she scolded me and gave me the cliché "He's not good for you" talk. I got really mad and left. I just started walking the way I came, not really thinking of where to go. Then after five minutes, he appeared from around the corner and hugged me. He said he wanted to see me again, so he left like five minutes after I left his dorm. I told him what my aunt had said and he hugged me and said to me that he would always love me. I then said that I would love him always too. And then the dream ended.
After all this, the reality of the situation hit. I love this man. I have tried to tell myself before that it's just a crush, but this feeling has never gone away. I have been attracted to other guys, but not like the way I'm attracted to him. I truly do love him, with all my heart.
