Stay Forever - MYG SEQUEL

Math Class (REAL)

I dragged myself home, dazed and unsure of what to do next. When I got to the dorm, all the strength that had carried me home left my aching body and I collapsed on the couch. The members didn't say much, not knowing the reason for the dirt and ash on my face that I hadn't bothered to clean off but not quite willing to ask yet. The look on my face was a dangerous one but I didn't have enough willpower to care.

I was furious and heartbroken and empty, all at once and yet I felt nothing. 

You are gone. (Y/N) is gone. 

and a piece of me is gone with you

I stared at the wall for two straight hours. The boys said and asked things but it all sounded like static to me. The only reason they discovered what happened is because Taehyung went to your apartment and discovered the horror himself. 

He came back in through the door sobbing, collapsing against the doorframe. Immediately the others went to him, held him and asked what's wrong.

That's how I should have reacted, right?

Not like this.

You deserved tears but they wouldn't come. Why wasn't I crying? It took me a moment to realize I was. Silently, the tears made their way down my ash-stained face. Taehyung had broken the dam in my mind, allowing the stinging salt-water to cascade freely and break the rest of me down.

As Taehyung told them the horrid tale through rugged breaths, Jimin came to me and held me in his arms. I felt that he was hurting too but he cared too much to let it show because he knew how my heart was shattered. He knew how to hold the pieces but not quite how to put them back together. He loves fiercely, like you do. Did. 

We didn't move, for a long while. The other boys came and went, Namjoon made a lot of phone-calls. I didn't listen to what he said, I knew well enough what he was calling about.

Just as the many pieces of my heart were on the floor, I began to wonder what sides of your heart I would now never see.

There were so many things I would never learn about you.