I woke up feeling hollow. Everything seemed less colorful today. I immediately wished to go back in time, to when I at least felt something. Anything would have been better than the empty hole in my chest.
The others were seemingly still asleep except Namjoon, who's quiet and distressed voice I could hear from my room. Carefully I stood and walked out of my room, pausing in front of Joon and Tae's open door. His back was to me, sitting at his desk as he talked on the phone.
"No, I'm telling you he watched her go in. Look, please just look again!"
His voice broke on the last word, revealing that his calm face was an act, likely for my well-being. He felt it as much as any of us, but his leader instincts kept him from showing it. He would do anything to protect us.
My eyes drifted to Taehyung, who was asleep on his bed. Even in the early morning light, his tear-stained face was easy to see. I almost went to him, and held him like Jimin had held me. But I wasn't strong like Namjoon was, so instead I left the dorm.
The cold was different this morning. It was just another bite now, another pain that I could ignore. As if in response to my melancholy outlook, an angry gush of wind hit my weak body and nearly made me stumble. Frustrated at anything and everything, I called out to nothing in particular. God, maybe. Or you.
"Is this what you wanted for me? Why. I don't understand it, and there are a lot of things I don't understand. But this? It feels like it's eating me from the inside."
When I finished talking, I found myself standing on your charred doorstep just staring at the collapsed doorframe. What the hell were you thinking?
Angrily, I kicked a piece of the broken house again and again. Suddenly it shifted and let the frame collapse just a bit more. I fell to my knees, having shifted my wall of emotions a bit as well, letting it collapse just enough for me to cry again. The pebbles on the ground that were once part of your home dug into my knees, but it felt right. At least now the hole in my chest could be filled again, even if it had to be filled by pain.
"I love you."
And then I stood and walked away.
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Stay Forever - MYG SEQUEL
Fiksi Penggemar**Sequel to Your Heart Strings** One last dream. The two of us, together. Happy. And you still had to leave, but this time I got to smile and say goodbye
