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tsukishima x yamaguchi

(2/3)

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"tsuki? i'm home," i greeted by the front door, taking off my shoes and placing them on the side. i took off my slightly damp coat and hung it on the wooden hook. i patted my head to get the snow off my hair.

that night, snow fell heavily outside, piling up. it was also one of the days when tsuki was the one who arrived home first from college.

because it was winter season, the doorstep and entrance being cold was a given. but as i walked to the living room, i noticed that the heater wasn't on and it was too cold for my liking. the lights were off and my boyfriend was nowhere to be found lazing around on the couch.

"tsuki? where are you?"

soon enough, i heard sobbing coming from the bedroom. wasting no time, i rushed to the shared quarters, fumbling with the keys because the door was locked.

i finally unlocked the door and opened it. my heart sank, seeing tsuki curled up at the rightmost corner of the room, right beside his bed; hugging his knees, his head tucked and his body trembling.

the room was a wreck. papers were scattered everywhere, empty bottles of energy drinks were on the floor, the bed was a mess and there were shards of broken glass and ceramics by the bedside table. i know it wasn't my shambles, nor was it a mess created due to our laziness because none of us skipped on chores.

it just meant that tsuki was having a bad day.

and bad is an understatement.

i rushed to his side, wrapping my arms around him. i placed my lips on top his head and rubbed circles on his back. he relaxed, his shaking ceased and his breathing was beginning to regulate.

"what's wrong?" i asked.

he sniffed before raising his head and placed it on my shoulder. i felt like crying just by seeing him like this.

"it's just - i am tired of it all now. school was being hectic and it sucks so much. i have all this work that i can't finish on time and the deadline is so damn unreasonable. i was working myself so much that when i stopped, everything just came crumbling down. my parents aren't here anymore," he paused to sniff.

"and nii-san would have less problems if he didn't have to send me to school. if i wasn't here, everything would've been easier. you and nii-san won't have to deal with my issues. why am i here? i have no reason to be here anymore," he confessed, his voice hoarse and husky from all his crying.

i held him tighter as i felt tears pooling at the corners of my eyes.

"if you were not there when your parents left this world, akiteru-san would've lost his mind," i answered.

"if you weren't here, I wouldn't be happy as I am now. I wouldn't have loved anyone like this," i continued, letting out a shaky breath as i try to keep myself together.

i felt him snuggle against my neck more. i placed my lips on the side of his head, my nose inhaling the sweet scent of his yellow strands.

"i am thankful that you are still here today, tsuki. i can't live without you."

his tensed body relaxed after i said those words, occasionally quaking as he hiccuped.

"i live for you, yamaguchi."

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A/N:

aaaaaAaAAAAAA I LIVE FOR YAMA TOO

- l e i n