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a ; drown

iwaizumi x oikawa

(1/3)

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the floral scent was wretching.

my insides churned to a painful twist, in the sickening redolence of both mixed petals and metallic blood. but i have to know where he was, so i swallowed all of my nausea and opened the door.

he's here.

he lied in the tub, completely submerged in the water, his pale legs dangling at the edge of the tub, his white dress shirt soaked, his black slacks drenched.

the room was almost empty if not for the variegated flowers, puddles scattered across the cold cement floor, the running water hose connected to the white ceramic tub in the middle of it all. the water was stained red overflowing, the surface was   almost covered with floating petals, along with a piece of paper.

i swallowed deeply before walking towards his drowned body. i brought his head up from the water and placed it against the side of the tub. i reached to feel his pulse.

is he dead?

i knelt beside the tub and pried his mouth open and gave him air.

pump and breathe.

pump and breathe.

this would have made my heart skip if only he wasn't dying on me.

'are you sure that's the only reason why you don't feel anything?'

soon enough, oikawa coughed out water, choking, his body wracking with violent concussions. opening his reddened eyes, he caressed my face.

"iwa-chan," he said, rubbing his thumb against my cheek.

i held his hand in mine before plunging into the water with him.

i held on tighter.

he was safe.

i closed my eyes as i lied with him in the water.

"i'm sorry."

why is it just oikawa and not me as well?

'because you ran away.'

"it's not your fault, iwa-chan."

it is.

it is my fault.

"if only you would blame me, tooru. everything would be easier."

"but it is not your fault."

"you should be mad."

i felt him come closer.

"why would i be?"

i placed my head against his.

"if only i knew."

"it's not your fault, iwa-chan. if i were you, i would've gotten the surgery as well."

"then why don't you?"

he intertwined our fingers.

"because loving you is the only thing i could do —"

i felt like dying.

"— if i can't do that, what else would i be left with?"

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you are invited to:

iwaizumi hajime and ----- -----'s matrimonial ceremony

where: okazaki jinja, kyoto
when: july 20 20**

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A/N:

inspired by monsta x's all in mv. pLS STAN EM — but as you can see, it's way a way different plot

love y'all

- l e i n