" L.O.V.E - H.A.T.E "

I was bad but I was hurt.

"TO KEEP YOU SAFE" it kept ringing in my head for next three days.

I just wanted to pin Tae to the wall and ask him what fuck he was not telling.
Ask him where I had gone wrong.

All this insanity had made go wild and loose senses and I was on peak of irritability and anger most of the time.

It did hurt that I had lost him and he was right here but I couldn't make him mine. Yes I still loved. He still was my first love.

I had changed a lot over the past theee days. In the fit of my anger I beat up a guy because he spilled water on my shoes. Silly but enough to spark me.

Jimin constantly asked me what I was pissed about. Soo Min had told him
"Whatever it is let her figure it out. Let her be." And Jimin backed off but watched me from a distance.

Today our gang was having lunch.
It was very quite like it had been past three days.

I had been poking at my food for ten minutes. Yoongi was away on a business trip so I was on my own.
The question just buzzed in my head repeatedly.

I was acting up again.
"I need fresh air" I said I dumped my food and walked out into the back court of the school.

I was strolling around. I was loosing it. I needed answers.

I saw Hoseok sitting by one of the trees. Taehyung was not around.
I quickly walked up to him.

He was eating his lunch.

"Stand up" I said.

"Lemme finish" he said stuffing his mouth I was impatient but I decided to wait.

"Now tell me, you approach me all of a sudden. Yo fine?" He asked in a cocky manner.

"Answer me" I said in all pissed off voice.

"He said he wanted to protect me.
Who did he want protect me from?
Why?" I was serious but I felt myself getting desperate.

"Ooh so now you wanna know? Why care now when everything is over?" He was back at being cocky.

I immediately grabbed his collar and pushed him into the tree.
"I ask, you asnwer. Stop being cocky.!"
I scowled.

Fortunately I was wearing a hoodie. The hood just covered enough of my face to hide that I was tearing up.

"Omg! Look who's growling."
And he quickly snapped my hands off his collar.

"Give me one good reason I should tell you everything. Mila. I'll tell who it is. Reasons, you must find out yourself. Tell me Mila why should I tell you?
So that you can hurt him again? So that he cries again because of your mistrust?
Huh?"

This triggered me. I was already crying head down. He was right. Tae uad cried because of my mistrust.

"You'll hurt him again and I cannot let you do that! What do you want to do?" Hoseok screamed.

"I LOVE HIM DAMMIT! I WANT HIM BACK. NOW THAT I KNOW I WAS WRONG, I WANNA MAKE IT RIGHT! I WANNA GET BACK WITH HIM"
My voice slowly turned into sobs.
"He was hurt becuase of me. I want to heal him, get him smiling again. I'll leave if he wants me to but after I make this right!"

I slowly sobbed under the hood.
I was shaking.

Hoseok did not move. He just sighed by himself. He came closer. He held my shoulders.

"It was Jae yoo." He said softly. May be he knew I was in a delimma.

"Jae yoo? Who"

"Jae Yoo, the who kissed him. He wanted to protect you from her and her family. And all the wrong people."