The Law Controls Me

Hospital

Ive been in here for 3 days and im tired and annoyed, I want to leave already! I want to be in my bed and i want to sit by the pool....I want to go home already.
Did I just call his home my home? 2 week ago Id be crying to go back to my family my other home but here i am completely head over hills wanting to go back with him. I could have had him in so much trouble but I couldn't do that too him because as much as it feels awkward to admit.... I cant stay away and i dont even want to try, he saved me from myself when I didn't even know I needed saving.
"How are you feeling Jennica?" the doctor comes in looking at my chart.
"I want to go home already." he chuckles but I just feel trapped here.
"Okay im going to check your wound then we will see how going home goes." I nod and lift my gown, the doctor pushes on it gently and im not going to lie it fucking hurts like hell!
"Well you are healing very well, I can call you in some pain medication and have you on your way home." Zavis smiles but I cant,
"I dont want pain meds..... Im a former addict and i dont want to slip up."
Zavis looks at me and smiles.
"Zavis can keep you on schedule and keep them out of reach. Dont worry I have all faith in you." I nod and smile as Zavis kisses my cheek.
"There will be some paperwork to sign and then you are free to go.." Thank god!!!!! The doctor walks out and Zavis helps me unhook some of the stuff, he carries me to the bathroom so I can shower. Hes such an amazing man..... He helped the whole time and has called off for 2 weeks, he didn't need to but, he wanted too.
When I get out I find Zavis signing all of the forms and I go get dressed, now im just waiting for a nurse to take out my IV. She comes in and slowly pulls it out, I breath a sigh of relive as Zavis grabs my things.
"Lets go home baby." He kisses my cheek and wheels me out of the hospital, I cant wait to lay in bed with him.
We pull up to the house and I see before my eyes my mom! Oh fuck..... We get out and my mom runs up to me hugging me,
"Mom watch the fuck out!" I hold my wound sucking in air as pain shoots through my body, Zavis picks me up.
"She needs rest. Come back later."
"Come back later?! You have had her locked up i know it! She has fucking stock home syndrome!"
"No i dont! Just leave me alone. I was dead to yall just leave it like that!" Zavis takes me inside laying me down, he gives me a pill to help with the overwhelming pain im in. We can hear yelling from outside and Zavis growls with anger. He picks up his phone.
"Delefuentez.... Are you patrolling?....... Can you please swing by my house and scare this lady to get off my property? ...... Thank you!" Zavis turns on the Ac and tucks me in, I smile as he turns on his box fan so I wont hear here anymore.
"Relax and sleep baby." I do as he says not even giving my mother the light of day, sleep consumes me completely and not long after i feel like im on cloud nine as Zavis pulls me into his rock hard bare chest. This is where I belong, in his arms.
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"Wake up my love."
My love? Ugh I love the sound of that, my heart feels all warm and fuzzy as he kisses my cheek. His scruffy face tickling mine, I roll over and find his beautiful smile.
"That smile is so crazy beautiful." He chuckles kissing me gently, these kisses could kill.
"What do you want to do too day?"
"What?"
"What do you mean what?"
"I'm allowed to leave the house?" His smile drops as if I were trying to be mean but it was just weird....
"Zavis I- I didn't mean t-t make it sound like that..... I I'm just n-not used to h.....having that option...."
"It's fine jennica..... I'm going to go shower. Your pain medication is on the night stand." He gets up walking away,
"Zavis please don't be mad." The bathroom door slam shut and I'm so confused and frustrated. I take the pill and get up going to the kitchen slowly, my side is killing me as I try to grab some grapes, they are on the top shelf in the fridge and it hurts so bad to stretch upwards. I suck in air as I feel a pop where my wound is, I grab it and feel blood slowly dripping down.
"Fuck!" I feel a hand on my shoulder and turn seeing Zavis looking at me questioningly. He looks down and his eyes widen.
"Jennica?!" He picks me up and sets me on the bed running out of the room, and comes back with bandages.
"This might hurt." I nod as he takes off the bandage and slowly puts peroxide on. I wince at the pain and he frowns a bit, as he replaces the bandage I grab his hands and look at him in the eyes.
"Zavis...... I'm sorry for how I said things... I didn't mean to hurt you." I pull his face to mine and kiss those beautiful lips, a tear slides down my cheek as I feel passion flow through my body.
"Baby what's wrong?" I smile,
"I'm just really happy."
"Really?" I nod and he hugs me gently.
"Do you want to get out of the house today?" I look at my wound and think I shouldn't,
"I don't think I'm ready..... and plus I've been having major anxiety and I don't think being around people will make that better...." He nods kissing the back of my hands.
"Do you want to call your mom or anyone else to come over?" I shake my head no,
"I don't want anyone from my past coming into my future. If they cared they would have shown it." He frowns nodding his head.
"Don't feel bad Zavis what you did was good for me, now I know who really cares and who doesn't and you got me clean, I don't even feel tempted with the pills..... you saved my life when I didn't even know I needed saving." I peck his lips,
"Thank you so much." He smiles and kisses my forehead.
"I'm going to go cook for you okay?" I look at him confused.....
"You cook?" He chuckles,
"Yes I do. Now lay back watch some tv and relax please." I smile and he helps me get comfy in bed before he leaves the room. My stomach growls as I hear him getting pans out, my man can cook huh?
My man? Is he my man? Are we even together? What are we? I need to define this relationship asap! #DTR I laugh to myself and watch Bill An Teds Bogas Journey, ugh I love this movie! The smell of the food starts to fill my nose and I get even more ravenous! Ugh please hurry, Zavis brings me a glass of BigRed and I smile. He knows what I like, he leaves the room and quickly comes back with a big plate of stuffed chicken breast with spinach cream cheese and a side of pasta with shrimp and alfreado sauce. This looks amazing! I start eating and I swear this is the best food I've ever ate in my whole life!
"Zavis you are really good at cooking."
"I know."
"How come you never cooked for me before?"
"Well I was always exhausted from work so I just didn't have the energy too." I nod as he takes our plates, my side feels so sore, I sigh as a strike of pain shoots up my side.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing just hurts really bad"
He frowns and laces our finger together.
"Let me know if you need anything, anything at all okay. I'll get it I don't care what it is." I smile and nod as he gets up again to clean up, sleep finds me again and I let it consume me completely.
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"Baby wake up!!! Babe!!!!" Zavis nudges me gently, I wake up and he's in a panic.....
"What?"
"Your whole family is outside causing havoc!" I get up as fast as I can along with his help and go to the front door opening it.
"Will y'all leave me the fuck alone?! Just leave!"
"We aren't leaving till you come with us now!" My heart jumps in my throat as my boyfriend well I guess ex boyfriend now says that stepping out of the crowd.
"Palo? What the fuck?!"
"Sweetheart come home with us please we miss you."
"No y'all don't and no y'all didn't! Y'all were just fine with me being gone! I don't need y'all and I don't want y'all. Y'all were hoping I was dead so y'all didn't have to put up with my druggy ways and now that I'm clean y'all want me around?! Fuck you....."
I broke at the last part as tears fell down my face.
"FUCK YOU ALL!"
Zavis wraps his arm around my waist gently.
"I think she has spoken her part and I think itd be best if you respect her wishes."
"Fuck you, brain washer! You held her hostage! We know it!" Zavis keeps walking back inside, my face in his chest as I cry out.
"Shhhh baby it's okay. I got you." I nod but, can't stop the crying it just keeps coming out of me.
"Everyone thinks I'm brain washed Zavis everyone, but I'm not right? I mean you didn't force me to have feelings for you and I did find you very attractive when I first saw you...... it can't be true." I shake my head looking into his eyes.
"You can go anywhere you want anytime I won't stop you, I just wanted you to appreciate what I did for you..... I wanted you to love yourself more. And if it led to feelings then so be it. I just want you to be happy." I smile knowing he is being genuine, he pecks my lips lightly trying not to turn me on because sex would be really risky at the state I'm in. I swear I'm falling I love with this man..... he is so sweet and kind and gentle yet hard at the same time. He has done so much for me and I can't even express how much it means to me now that I realize it.
"You are such an amazing man Zavis." He smirks that shy ass smirk that's so damn sexy at the same time, ugh why does he have to be so beautifully hot?!
I can't believe I spend 3 months with this man and I have yet to have sex with him. Ugh my body aches for it to happen but lord knows I can't yet not with this gunshot wound. Plus I want it to happen naturally, I don't want to force it at all or in anyway. We have come so close to getting there but, something always stops it and I'm kind of happy about that. Because if we would have already done it I'm sure something would have happened between us that would have kept me from feeling this deep for him.
"What's wrong baby?" He asks conserned.
"Nothing I'm just thinking about you, I'm so happy here with you." He kisses my cheek.
"You've been out for 4 hours are you hungry yet?" I hear my stomach growl and he chuckles.
"Let's go out to eat." I nod and he helps me get dressed, I put my bra and panties on first and yell for him to come help me with my jeans.
"Zavis I'm ready for help." He chuckles coming in the room, his eyes racking my body up and down.
"You gonna stay there gawking or you gonna help me out here?"
"The first one." I roll my eyes as he stays there looking at me.
"Zavis please help me, I'm not that good looking okay." I say giggling, he shakes his head and walks over too me and kisses my shoulders.
"You are beyond perfection my love." He pulls my tight pants up to my waist and buttons them up. He grabs my blouse and pulls it down gently letting it cover my breast and stomach. My breathing so shallow as he kisses my lips deep but soft.
"You ready?" I nod smiling, he picks me up taking me outside to his car and sets me in. We drive for while my stomach going crazy for food, Zavis has our fingers laced together and I feel so much love. This feels like pure heaven, we pull into a restaurant and the vallet and they take our car. Zavis helps me inside as we get our table, this is their at time I've been out in 3 months and for some reason I'm getting high anxiety. My heart is beat hung so fast I feel weak and sick.... I don't think I can do this.....
"What can I get y'all to drink?"
"I'll get a Corona."
"Ummm I..... sweet tea is f-fine." Zavis looks at me worried.
"What's wrong?" My breathing so fast I feel like I'm going to faint, I close my eyes trying to calm down but I can hear everything! Silverware clinking on the pates ice hitting the glass inside the cups..... every single conversation, and the chewing....
"I'm going to the l-ladies room." I whisper out walking away quickly, tears flood my eyes as I reach for the door. I put my hands on the sink and look in the mirror, what the hell is wrong with you Jennica?! I splash some water on my face feeling a tad bit hot.
"Are you okay?" Woman says walking out of a stall, she washes her hands and looks at me.
"I'm just having anxiety."
"Oh! I have some valum if you need it." She hold out her hand with 4 pills, I look at them knowing I can't take them. I smile,
"No thank you it really sweet of you but I can't."
"Why not?"
"I'm a recovering addict so yeah..."
"Ohhhh okay, I'm sorry hunn"
"It's okay really but thank you a lot for the offer."she nods and walks out, I take a deep breath and walk back out, my side is starting to hurt again, fuck that's gonna make this worse! I sit down and chug my sweet tea, Zavis looks at me like I'm crazy, I can't do this.....
"Zavis take me home please."
"W-why?"
"I ummm I'm.... fuck, Zavis im having bad anxiety. Please I'm not ready to be around people please." He nods helping me out side setting me in the car.
"What do you want to eat? I'll go order it real quick."
"Whatever you get." He nods as I get a cig out and light it up, ugh this cures my anxiety so much! I get out so I won't get the smoke in the car and continue to smoke the cig, my heart is calming down and I can breath better. My mind isn't racing anymore and all I hear are cars in the distance. Calm and relaxed is what I feel now, I finish my cig and get in the car Turing up the music. NWA comes on fuck the police is jamming loud and I can't help but sing the lyrics. The door swings open and Zavis sits down looking at me hard, his hard face breaks with a smile as he does the next part making me laugh out. He starts the car and we sing the song on the drive home.
"Didn't take you for rap." Zavis says smiling as we get out of the car,
"I love old rap I hate this new shit they call rap." He laughs as he unlocks the door.
"Jennica!" I turn around seeing my now ex boyfriend.
"Oh my god dude leave me alone! I'm with Zavis! I don't want you Palo!!!!"
"He took you from me Jennica! I've been going crazy with out you!"
"Really because it said a week ago that you were in a relationship with my ex best friend, boy bye I don't have time to waist my breath on you. Go home and do some drugs and forget about me alright?!" I walk in the house Zavis locks the door and smiles.
"Your mean." He says playing.
"Karmas a bitch." He chuckles setting up our plates, we eat and laugh about life, Zavis takes my plate and stands me up.
"Whats going on?" He gets down on one knee and my heart starts to race so fast, what is he doing?!
"Jennica will you be my girl?" He pulls out a beautiful silver bracket that says 'love' written in diamonds, I smile and nod.
"Yes Zavis." He puts the bracket on my wrist standing up kissing me deeply.
"Do you like it?"
I nod smiling,
"Yes I like it so much... you didn't have to do this really."
"I wanted too baby girl." I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss his cheek.
"Thank you for the grand gesture Zavis it was the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me." He smiles that million dollar smile making me weak,
"How is your side feeling?"
"Hurts but I just want it to go away already." I say pouting, he pecks my lips.
"Whys that?" I smile shyly looking away,
"Uhh because I don't like being in pain."
"Mhmm." He says looking down at picking me up setting me gently on the bed.
"Is my sweet not so sweet little girl thinking naughty thoughts?"
"No....."
"May I ask you a personal question?" I nod as he places his hands on my thighs.
"How many men have you been with?" I run my lip with my thumb mumbling
"2." He cuffs his ear like he didn't hear me,
"Sorry what?" I roll my eyes and shout,
"Two!" He bites his lip looking down at me,
"So your still kind of new to all of this huh?" He kisses my neck
"Stop teasing me Zavis." He pulls away slowly and nods,
"It's late let's get to bed." I nod and go take a shower, my side is aching so much, I just want this pain to go away!
My mid drifts to Zavis and how he must be in bed, I wonder is he gentle or aggressive? I sigh, I'll probably never find out with the shit that keeps happening to me. I swear he makes me want to do bad thing all the time, just the sight of him makes me go insane inside.
I get out of the shower and go lay in bed, ugh I love this bed so much! I feel the bed dip down. But as he gets in Turing out the lights, he rests his hand on my thigh so he won't hurt my wound. His hand is hot and soft, my mind thinks dirty dirty thoughts and I smile to myself. This man is addicting, have I found my new drug?
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.............One week later............
"Baby come outside I have a surprise for you." I hop out of bed feeling way less sore and walk fast to the front door. My mouth drops as I see a mustang in the drive way, he dangles the keys infront of my face and I snatch them running to the car and sit in it. My hands rubbing the steering wheel, oh my god she is beautiful!
"I thought you could use a car to get around since I had your crushed."
"Well this is an upgrade from my old ass car."
"Start her up." I do as he says bs the engine roars loudly, excitement fills my body and I'm completely in love!
"I knew you liked loud fast cars so yeah...." I get out after turning the engine off and hug him tightly.
"Thank you so much Zavis, I love it, it's so perfect. Just like you." He chuckles kissing me deeply, ugh I'm so loving this, us kissing me having my freedom and not hating him. I could get used to this I really could, my heart is melting for this man so fast.
"Wanna take it for a spin?"
I nod and he sets me down as I get in, he waves me off and I pull out of the drive fast and speed off burning rubber. I blast the stereo and Kings Of Leon play Crawl ugh I'm in heaven!!!!! I stop at a corner store and put in gas filling the tank up, this is going to help with my social anxiety so much! I laugh to myself and drive back home only to see my ex standing in the yard singing what used to be our song.
"Palo! What the hell are you doing?!"
"Jennica! Baby please come back home with me. I miss you so much baby!" I roll my eyes,
"You didn't miss me when I was gone why miss me now?"
"I did miss you baby I over dosed and I haven't touched the stuff since..... your best friend was there for me and I got caught up in the moment with her but it's you I want." Zavis comes outside looking at us.
"Your telling me your I love with a cop?! Why because he buys you nice stuff?! He can take care of you financially unlike me so that's why you want him? I can do that too baby, I can buy you nice things..... we had a future planned out, marriage kids...... don't you remember?" I look away from him feeling a sadness wash over me.
"Remember our daughters name would be Valerie and the boy Anthony.... we had everything planned out."
"Grow up Palo! Just leave me alone! We are over okay, just move on because I sure did and you wanna know why I want him?! Because he cares for me like no other could, he helped me get clean he had total faith in me. He is amazing to me in every way possible and I couldn't imagine living a day without him and I won't. I've never felt like that for anyone in my life not even my family. You and them they forgot all about me left me to die, yeah I was in the news missing but that was it. There was no flyers for me no search parties nothing y'all didn't put any effort into finding me. I was a lost cause to y'all and you know what?! I'm thankful for that because if y'all would have found me I probably would have ended up dead a week after. I'm alive and healthy because of this man.
Just get the fuck out of my life Palo!"
I push him off the land and keep doing so till he turns around and walks away, tears fall down my face realising I'm alone I don't have any real friends or family all I have is Zavis he is the only one that cares about me. I walk up to the porch and Zavis tried to grab my hand but I pull away.
"I just need a sec alone." I keep walking going to the back yard dipping my feet in the cold pool and call myself down. My tears are drying up as the sun goes down and I feel a lot better now, I hear the back door open then close.
"Baby?" I nod.
"Are you not happy here?"
"I'm happy here..... I just feel alone..... everyone that I thought that cared about me didn't......" he sits next to me and pulls me into his arms.
"I'm sorry baby....." sobs break out of me my chest hurting from the force of my sobs. He holds me tight as I let it all out not letting go of me for one second.
He is my knight in shinning armour and I swear I'm falling in love with this man.
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🔽🔽🔽🔽🔽Palo🔽🔽🔽🔽