My Heart My Story (Discontinued)

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"Jinyoung!" I exclaim when he opens the door.

"Casey!" He shouts back. I give him a quick hug before I let Colby actually introduce himself this time.

"Hi, I'm Colby Brock." Colby introduces himself. "I believe we met at the hospital." Jinyoung says, shaking his hand.

"Yeah. Colby, Jinyoung my best friend. Jinyoung, my boyfriend." I say. We all chuckle before going deeper into the house.

The night seemed like it was gonna go great.

I couldn't have been more wrong.

"Yeah and we were like running around like a bunch of crazy people and it was a hell of a good time." I say laughing loudly. Colby just sits with a small chuckle. Jinyoung laughs with me at our memory in Uni.

"So, Jinyoung, Ive been hearing a lot about you lately." Colby starts. I can see a certain glint in his eyes and I know that I better step in before he says something stupid.

"Did you and Casey ever..." "Colby I think that's enough." I interrupt. "No. I want to know. I'm just curious. Have you two ever dated? When you were in South Korea." He asks.

<WARNING THE UPCOMING TOPIC MIGHT BE TOUCHY FOR SOME VIEWERS! PLEASE BE ADVISED!!>

"This topic is touchy, Colby." I state. Colby shrugs not fully understanding what I mean by that.

"Uh..." Jinyoung starts hesitantly, rubbing the back of his neck. "It's okay, Jinyoung. You don't have to share with him. He's just being an asshole." I tell him. Colby rolls his eyes and goes to stand up but Jinyoung speaks up instead, "No. I... I need to talk about it at some point." He says.

Jinyoung clears his throat getting himself ready to begin. I grab his hand in mine, giving him a reassuring squeeze. Colby glares at the gesture but I ignore his intense gaze. Jinyoung will need the most support during this.

"Uh... Casey and I did date. I was in a bad place when I met her. She seemed so happy and carefree. I wondered what it would be like if I could be like that. I remember asking her... why are you always so happy? In a world like this? She told me that if she couldn't be happy then what would be the point? I asked myself that everyday. In my life before Casey I never thought that I could be happy. Ever. For... reasons that I feel I can't explain as of right now... I fell into depression. While I was dating Casey I felt like I was lying to her about my happiness. Don't get me wrong she made me happier than I thought was even possible... but for those reasons I mentioned... I couldn't be fully happy. Maybe... what.... three weeks into dating? I was going to...." Jinyoung pauses, breathing deeply, his eyes began to fill with tears. "You don't have to continue..." I whisper. Jinyoung just shakes his head, "No.. I will. I was going.... to.... commit suicide." He whispers. I feel a few tears slip out of my own eyes as I stare at this once broken soul in front of me. I love him like my own brother.

"If Casey hadn't have found me that day. I wouldn't be here today. If she hadn't put that chair back under my feet.. if she hadn't pulled that... that fucking rope off... I would be six feet under." Jinyoung says, tears streaming down his face.

Colby gains a sad look too and looks down at his hands in his lap, "I'm... sorry. It's just... jealous boyfriend you know. I didn't mean to bring up a sore topic."

"It's okay. I'm better now. Casey helped me get some help. And that's how I found and fell in love with my fiancée." Jinyoung says with a loving smile.

"Oh my gosh! You and Min Ah are getting married!?" I exclaim. Jinyoung chuckles before he wipes away some of his tears. "Yeah. We are getting married here. Her parents are gonna come as well as mine." He say his spirits visibly lifting at the mention of his big day. "Oh my gosh! I can't wait!" I exclaim standing up quickly to give Jinyoung a hug. In the process however i had forgotten about my sprained ankle. 

I wince at the pain and try to jump to my other foot but i wasn't quite fast enough and before I know it I'm falling into the arms of...

To be continued...

Sorry another short chapter!

I'll  try better next time!