You Deserve

44

August

"Baby stop it." I stated chuckling looking at Marli pout on my phone screen.

By the time my flight landed it was night time and I was tired as hell but I decided to call and check in with babygirl on FaceTime. She was just excited to hear from me and now she's all in her feelings and shit. She such a baby.

"I'm not doing anything." She mumbled

"Yes you are, stop poutin, I only been gone for 6 hours and you already dyin without a nigga."

"I am not dying I'm sulking, there's a difference." She retorted.

"Imma need you to get ya life babygirl."

"You are my life, and you're gone." She stated under her breath but I heard every word.

"Come on na baby don't do that, ya act like I ain't never coming back."

"I know, ugh I'm sorry. I'm just tripping that's all."

I paused before saying what was really on my mind.

"Me not being with you ain't the problem is it?" I questioned raising a brow.

I ain't stupid, I know she don't trust a nigga but I promised her I wasn't gon fuck up anymore. I gave her my word, what the fuck else she want from me.

I shook my head as she remained quiet.

"Seriously Marli. I told you I wasn't gon do that shit to you nomore. What is it that ya don't understand."

"I do understand August, you just don't get it."

"Nah I do get it. You still trippin off the incident. I know I was wrong and I admitted the shit but I told you I was gon do better. How the hell you expect us to move past this shit if you still harboring onto it." I snapped.

"You act like this shit is easy, I'm hurting August! Yeah I forgave you and took you back but that doesn't mask how I'm feeling. I'm angry and I'm hurt August and you don't seem to give a fuck about what I'm dealing with. You're not the one who was betrayed, I was. So you think about that the next time you want to snap at me for some shit you caused." She spat ending the call.

I groaned tossing my phone on the other side of the bed. I ain't mean to snap at her but it's just frustrating trynna prove my loyalty to her. I said I wasn't gon do anything and I meant that shit. I just need for her to work with me and trust me when I say I'll never degrade her like that ever again.

The following morning

Marli

I woke up a little down due to my heated discussion with August the previous night. I just wish he'd understand how much his actions affected me. I'm trying to get over it I really am it's just hard and upsetting.

I trudged to the kitchen in search of food. I was in no mood to cook anything so I just popped some Toaster Strudels in the toaster and sat on the counter. I unlocked my phone to see no alerts from August and became even more sad. My pitty party was interrupted by a knock on the door.

"One second!" I announced taking my food out, putting it on a plate and dashing to the door.

I peered through the peephole seeing nothing but roses and a pair of legs. I furrowed my eyebrows as I cracked open the door.

"Miss Rae residence?"

"Yes this is she..." I confirmed in a confused tone.

"This is a delivery from Mr.Alsina ma'am."

A smile instantly began to creep upon my face. I took the bouquet of roses and the envelope along with it before thanking the man and returning to the kitchen. I quickly searched for a vase to put the roses in. Once that was done I took the roses, my food and the envelope upstairs to my bedroom. I set the bouquet on my nightstand and sat on the edge of my bed opening the card.

"Dear Marli,

I'm sorry for the way I acted last night. It was wrong of me and I didn't mean to snap on you like that but I just got frustrated. I know shit ain't gon get better overnight but I'm tryin baby. I swear on everything I love I'm not gon hurt you like that ever again. I just wish you were able to trust me when I say that but I know I fucked that up and it's my job to fix it. Just stick wit me and give me time to prove to you that I'm the man you thought I was in the beginning. I love you and I'm sorry baby. I hope you like the flowers, I didn't know what kind you liked so I just decided to be a basic ass nigga and get roses. Anyways, I miss you and I love you so much, never forget that babygirl.

Love,
Big Daddy Aug."

I chuckled as a few tears slipped down my cheeks. This boy is a fool but it's little things like this that make me fall for him even more. I realized that I have to allow myself to give him a chance to redeem himself. I gotta suck it up and keep on moving. My little pep talk was cut short by my phone vibrating on the nightstand. I peered at it to see I had an incoming FaceTime call from August that I didn't hesitate to answer.

"Dang it took you long enough." He joked chuckling

"Hush big head." He smiled once he noticed the vase of roses resting on my nightstand.

"Ya like em?"

"I love them, I love this card even more. Thank you for everything."

"You deserve the best things in life Mar and I'm sorry I ain't give you that in the beginning. Just keep rocking wit me baby, shit gon get better. I'm gon get better, just keep holdin it down for me iight?"

I nodded blowing a kiss through the screen that he dodged.

"Hey, why you do that?" I whined.

"Cause imma be tempted to hop right back on that plane and have them lips 24/7."

I laughed at his seriousness as I laid back against the bed watching his every move.

"Why ya always watching me? Ya such a creep I swear."

"Well dang, a girl can't admire her boyfriend?"

"Nah you good." He mumbled.

I huffed as he laughed.

"Mar!!" Yanna shrieked.

"Imma call you back babe."

"Alright bye baby, I love you."

"I love you more." I stated quickly rushing off the phone.

"Yaya where you at?" I called out stepping into her room.

I heard another shriek coming from the bathroom and rushed inside.

"Yaya!"