Love me [Finished]

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Woozi's Prov
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:Black flash: Ten years ago

" Mama I'm back from school!" I shouted while closing the door behind me and taking off my shoes. After I called out for my mom I didn't hear a response. That made me feel a little weird. Because usually when I come home my mother greets me with a big hug and asking me how did school go. But this time my whole house was quiet that you can hear a pen drop.

I carefully put all of my school stuff in my room. While I was changing my school uniform to my regular clothes. I felt that the whole atmosphere around me was strange. But somehow I felt unsecured.

I started to dart down stairs to eat a snack. Until I hear muffled nosies in my parents room. I carefully tiptoe to check to see what it was. And saw my father bent over crying. I quickly opened the door and asked my dad.

" Dad what's wrong? Where's mom?" After I asked my questions my dad didn't respond to me. Until a good five minutes my dad didn't dare to look in my eyes and looked in the floor and said." Your mother had a stoke. Which caused........ which caused your mother to die." With a monotone voice, almost like with no expression or emotion in his voice. When I heard my fathers statement I quickly cupped my mouth in shock and started to cry.

While I was crying. My mind was flowing of thoughts what me and my mother did throughout the years and what she have told me. "Oh Jihoon, by every day your growing. One day your going to out grow me!" My mother would always tell me that.

My mother always made sure that ate or if I was healthy. When I remembering all of those good times I thought to myself. But why? This morning my mother was completely healthy. Nothing looked wrong to her. It wasn't her time!

Before I knew it. I asked my father in a demanding tone. " Why! Why didn't you tell me about this! You could have checked me out of school to see my mother! You could have done something! You only think about yourself! I bet you made mom have the stoke!" With the last sentence I yelled at my father and left the room leaving my father blaming himself for everything.

When I got to my room I slammed the door shut and started to cry more and getting more mad at my father and at myself. Before I knew it, I cried myself to sleep.

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The next morning there wasn't school. Which was fine. I did my morning hygiene. And put on a dark blue t-shirt and some grey joggers, and slip up some pink fuzzy socks. While I was making my way to down stairs to eat breakfast.

I immediately noticed that my dad is still in his room covered with my mother's favorite flower patterned blanket. I sigh of looking my dad in this state. And I feel really bad and horrible about yesterday. That I screamed to my dad and raised my voice and blaming my dad about what happened to my mother.

When I get to the kitchen. I look for something easy and quick to whip up for my father and I. I quickly setup the rice cooker and make rice and make sunny side eggs. I diligently make my fathers plate neat as I can and put orange juice. Then I make my plate as well and leave my plate in the kitchen table.

I get my fathers plate and orange juice. And carefully take the plate and the juice to my fathers room. I quietly try to open the door. Until the door made a huge creek sound. I quickly turned into panic mode. And start to worry if my father is going to hit me.

"Jihoon, you can come in." My father told me with his deep voice. Without daring to face me." Uhhh.... Dad. I made you something to eat. You didn't eat anything yesterday ... so I'm leavening the plate right here." I say with a quivering voice.

I placed the plate and the orange juice in fathers and mothers night stand. And quickly left the room while closing the door behind me. After I closed the door. I went downstairs to eat my breakfast. I ate my breakfast very slowly and calm.

While I was eating my breakfast. I could still remember my mother's sweet and kind voice."Jihoon! It's now time to eat!" Time to eat. I whispered to myself. After I ate my breakfast. I washed all the plates and put every left over of food in the containers. When I got down with that.

I left the plates in the sink and decided that I will put up the plates in a little while. Now with no mother to tell me what to do or what to say. I went to the living room and turned on the tv. After channel surfing for a while to find what I can watch. To distract myself and think the good times with my mother.

I heard a couple of knocks in my door. Knock. Knock. Knock. I got up and grabbed a little kid blue chair. I placed the blue chair in front the door. And stud on top of the chair. To see who is knocking at the door. And saw three familiar heads.

I opened the door and saw Jeonghan, Joshua, and Chan outside of my door while a bright smile in their faces. " Hey Hyung, all eleven of us are going to play ball out-"  "Woozi were you crying? Because your eyes are puffy and your eyes are so red. " Said Joshua while cutting off Chan.

"Yeah Woozi, are you ok?" Asked Jeonghan with a slight concern in his voice.

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I told everything what happened to Jeonghan, Joshua, and Chan. While I was telling them about my mother. I started to burst into tears while putting my hands to my face.

" Guys.... I just can't....... my mother left this world, my dad is inside of his room depressed,Crying his eyes out. And Now I don't know if I want to live this life. My mother was my whole world. Now..... now she's gone forever." I said while sobbing in Jeonghan's arms.

Jeonghan, Joshua, and Chan had a shocked. Expression in their faces about what I said. The whole living room got quiet that you can only hear us four breathing and me gently crying.

     For a few minutes while I was calming down. I heard Jeonghan and Joshua whispering to each other and nodding at each other. Until Jeonghan released from my grasp and holder my shoulders while facing me  and said.

      " Woozi I know it's hard that you lost your mother. And that is truly sad, and I know that you and your mother had a close connection together. But from now on Joshua and I are going to take care of you. Just imagine me as your mother, even though I don't look nothing like her, but Joshua is going to be your father."

     Jeonghan said while looking at my black eyes sweetly. Then after what Jeonghan said I looked at him with my puffy red eyes. Almost ready to burst and I quickly hugged Jeonghan while saying softly. " Thank you Jeonghan, Thank You Joshua, and Thank you Chan for being here. " I said while crying in Jeonghan's shoulder. Jeonghan Hugged back and softly ran his fingers in my hair and patted my back gently.

     The whole day Joshua, Jeonghan, and Chan were at my house keeping me company. And distracting me from my thoughts. I'm really glad to have my friends by my side.

Hi I'm sorry if this chapter was hurried up. And for my bad grammar. Also I was re reading this book. And I noticed that I forgot some words. Because I type so fast and forget to check over. But yeah  I'll try to make this book better bye!!!!