Do you ever just want to lay in the grass and sleep the days away? Just wait for everything to move on? With the sun and breeze and the noises of nature but nothing touching you. Time is paused but also time speeds past you? I want to sink into the depths of the earth and fall apart. But when it is time for me to be strong for and support you, I am there. After you don't need me, I can leave again and sink into earth and sleep. With the sun and breeze and the noises of nature but nothing touches me. Im surrounded I the perfect environment and only have to be strong for others. I don't want to support myself. I dont want to be strong for myself. Just for you. I just want to let me fall apart. I can feel the strength leaving me. First the tips of my fingers. Relaxing and loosing with lost tension. It moves to all of my hands then to my arms. Slowing relaxing. Moving to my shoulders. Dropping with lost tension. Traveling to my neck my head drops. Flowing down my back, I slouch with exhaustion that I didn't even know was there. Following my legs I fall down down down to the earth and the sun and the breeze. My body is exhausted and weak. From being too strong too long. I've just need a long sleep for a long time. I'm sorry that I need this. I need this to be strong for you again. I know, I realized that to be strong for you, I must be strong for myself. You're right. I love you. You've always been my support too. You've always been my strength. You don't even know what you've done for me. You're my hero. I want to be your hero. Youre hurting and I'm trying my best to be the strength that you have been to me.
