Honestly, when I speak do you even listen? When I tell you I'm hurting inside? Do you understand that I'm not happy? Do you understand that I'm slowly dying living like this? You're killing me. I'm trying to tell you but you don't want to hear it. Why do you just tell me to be quiet? Then when I go to someone else for help, you act like I'm hiding it from you? I have been screaming that I'm broken! You tell be "Oh honey, don't be like that. You're fine." When you say you want the best for me, why don't you do the things that are the best for me? Why do when I try to help myself, you tell me I'm being selfish? Why do you hurt me in every way possibly imaginable? I'm trying to be the best I can be but you continuously rip me apart? I'm trying to tell you that I'm just trying to breathe. Please, I need your help. I can't do this thing without you because I love you. Im sorry I need this. This just keeps everything for getting so bad I can't breathe. But if you keep doing this to me I'll start drowning. I can't keep fighting my worst self when if you will not help me. I'm trying not to. Please.
Trying is define as: extremely annoying, difficult, or the like; straining one's patience and goodwill to the limit:
a trying day; a trying experience.
This is everyday to me. I just need you to help me get through this.
