"I Love You" ~ //BTS Oneshots

Jealous of you two (Namjin)

*Warning*

Contains:
Heavy Angst
Depression
Cutting
Sad as hell
Eventual gay

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Jin's POV

"Oppa's make a heart! Make a heart!" One of the fans requested. I looked towards Namjoon to do the heart but apparently he and Taehyung were requested.

I looked away in a sassy and what probably looked like jealousy and put a finger to my temple. I've always had a crush, no scratch that I love him. He was always the one to be helping me, the one that gave me butterflies when I glanced at him and caught him staring at me, the one to be touching me and back hugging me. But I guess he was just naturally friendly.

After the fan meeting I went straight to my room, not even bothering to bow to the group after we bowed to the fans. They didn't notice anyways. I got a sticky note and wrote to Taehyung about me being gone for a few days, our schedules weren't jam packed for the week so woop woop to me

I grabbed a duffel bag and filled it with random clothes, wallet, my charger, phone and toiletries and closed it up. I checked if anyone was in the hall which there wasn't, thankfully, and rushed out the door. I walked down the fire exit and was completely sure I was hidden from any sight.

I sighed to myself once I got to my tree house on the private lot I rented, far, far away from societies burning stares. I felt a buzz from my pocket, I took it out to check what's up

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From: Shitty Tae💩
Hyung where the hell are you going?
Sent 5:54 pm
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From: Shitty Tae💩
Hyung where the hell are you going?
Sent 5:54 pm

To: Shitty Tae💩
I'm fine Taehyung. Don't come
after me
✔5:55 pm

From: Shitty Tae💩
Why the hell should I not
come after you?!?!
Sent 5:56 pm

To: Shitty Tae💩
I'm fine, trust me. Just tell your
brothers to behave and I'll be b-
ack in a few days
✔5:58 pm

From: Shitty Tae💩
Okay... Stay safe. We love you
Read 6:00 pm

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I sighed and shut my phone down, already knowing that all my sons will be worried and try to text me. I wanted peace and quiet, just to collect my thoughts on why does Namjoon and Taehyung make me feel like I wanna puke everything I ate

Namjoon is so perfect, he'll never be in love with me. He's so outgoing just like Tae, they're absolutely the perfect duo. I can't do this shit anymore, I've been holding back for over ten years. I grab a razor from the bathroom, perfectly sharp and glimmering under the light. I slice my pale wrist once, then twice, then until I have no more to cut. I just sat on the floor crying my eyes out. After I a few minutes I couldn't cry anymore and started to treat my cuts. After that I trudged to my bed

I laid down on my bed and immediately fell asleep not having any worries about tomorrow.

Namjoon's POV

I was so fucking worried about Jin, he didn't look alright at all. The whole fan meeting he barely even smiled when the fans came. Now he's fucking gone!