Sotus: A short lovestory

The only way to truth, straight.

*song: JongHyun - Lonely 
It's not the best choice, maybe. Dear Jonghyun wrote it, and after his death, it's been talked about here and there, of the meaning of these lyrics+his depression and suicide. But still, the words are beautiful and sad, and a lot of those go with this chapter's meaning. Especially. Don't keep your feelings inside. Be open, Be honest and talk about what you think. At least that's what I feel, most of the world isn't doing. Nobody's talking about the truth inside, everybody talks about meaningless crap from the outer of our minds.

*It's been a hard 6 days for me. I sold a horse, the other one died a day after, the emotions, the paperwork, the exhaustion, the depression. Then the speech contest on Monday.. how my hands trembled, in front of the judges from Korea... Messed it up.. a bit :D Yesterday bought a new tablet, should be here tomorrow, surface pro 4, hope it makes me as happy as I believe it will :D Then the writing is easier, my old laptop severely hates me... Well, she's old, she should have a good rest.  Now, that my life story is written and finished :D Read about our fav boys, my darlings and I hope it seems as intriguing for you, as it was for me to write it :)

Arthit POV

The next week went along the same way. They would spend all day together. At some points, they would lose themselves in kissing each other, but Kong seemed to be the expert of finding self-control, at the right moment, which Arthit knew, was obviously necessary, but a hell of an annoying talent.
Arthit had almost daily now some of his memories trickling back to him. Some were easier to decipher, especially the ones with Kong, those didn't scare him at all. Arthit was a bit startled and confused about memories at the end of this love story they had, had, There was something important that seemed to handle some weird situations, which Arthit could not yet see clearly. Some deep sad expression on Kong's face kept Arthit from asking. Especially one night, he had a terrible dream, which he didn't remember later on, but Kong was there to console him and didn't act in any way weird, except next morning he was all withdrawn and blanked out so often that Arthit got really worried. As days went by, Kong drew around him some kind of protective shield, Arthit could not penetrate, however irritating or sweet he tried to be. So one day when they walked back from the lecture together, Arthit held Kong's hand and walked to a bus stop. It took Kong a total of 10 minutes to discover, that they weren't walking and he acted all surprised at the location they had finally reached. When Arthit didn't answer to his questions about, the place they were heading, Kong let it go and just marvelled at the closeness Arthit let him feel in public. It seemed to Arthit, that if he didn't hold that hand, at that moment, then he would not be able to lead Kong to where they were heading.

Arthit stepped off the bus and pulled Kong along with him, by now he had hoped to see some emotions on the younger guy's face, but it still took some steps and almost 30 sec for Kong to realise where they were. Arthit didn't look at him as he was walking to the gates of their parents home, but a sudden pull from Kong's hand suddenly stopped him from reaching them. "P'Arthit why are we here?" Arthit started chuckling under his breath. "Now you suddenly decided to call me P? Is it scary to be here with me? Do you think I break the rules or anything..? As you can remember all and I remember only parts of our time here... Is it unfair for me or for you?" Arthit saw the million question on Kong's face, but he didn't react to them. He just breathed deeply and went to meet his lover's parents, again.

Many POV's

As he heard the butler merrily chatting with someone in the lobby, boy's mother entered it without a thought and stood at the door, watching their guests with as much of a surprise as one can feel in this kind of situation. She saw the linked fingers and her heart started beating with sudden excitement."Boys, you're finally here!" She almost knocked them over with the rush to hug both together. Both were surprised of this welcome, but Kong first and then Arthit put their free hand around her and hugged her back. Her happiness was felt in this hug and her tears were felt on their shoulders. As they entered the lounge together, with their mother ushering them forward, father stood up from his armchair with the same flicker of emotions as their mother had shown. Of course, he showed the only margin of them to all, but as he went and hugged them both briefly and acted with no surprise at their closeness, Arthit was convinced that this was the right time to come and ask questions and reveal everything from his part. He needed to know all and he really needed Kong to feel better. Kong's recent feelings weren't the actions of somebody who was in love, but somebody who had severe problems with his love-life-past.