Her Blue Eyes

10: Home Again

I limp out of the hospital with my mom. My arm around her neck to steady my balance. She walks me to the car and opens the passenger side door and helps me get in. She closes the car door and gets into the drivers side and closes the door. She drives out of the hospital and starts driving away. "It's all my fault..." I said. My mom looked at me then looked back at the road. "What are you talking about?" she asked. I sighed and looked down. "It's my fault Kat got shot and it's my fault that she got beat up and it's my fault that everything happened." I said as tears started to form in my eyes. I hold them back and it hurts my throat to do so but I still hold them back. "Honey it's not your fault! Nothing is your fault sweety. You can't blame yourself for what Paul did." she said trying to comfort me. I felt more tears form into my eyes and I can't hold them in anymore. I just burst out in tears. I feel so terrible for everything and I just feel so bad. "No i-it is my fault. I messed with Paul and h-he was pissed off and i-it was my fault he went berserk and shot us..." I stuttered. I let out sobs and I just feel super terrible. "It's not your fault Miles nothing was your fault I promise." my mom said. "But she's gonna hate me because I was the one who kissed her which pissed him off." I said as the tear flow started to slow. We pull up into our driveway and my mom got out of the car and helped me out. She helped me get inside and decided I wasn't ready to let me walk up the stairs so she let me lay down on the couch. "Get some rest honey you still need to heal." she said as she put a blanket over me. "Thanks mom." I said. She smiled and walked away. I closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep but all I could think about was Kat. As it got darker and darker I eventually fell asleep to the sound of birds chirping in the tree that was next to the window.