Damaged

-chapter 2-

Wanna know how we ended up here? I'll be delighted to show you I'd love to relive the feelings that I can't feel right now.

*yesterday morning 7:30 am*

"Oh gosh babe I'm running so late!" I said to Brin. As you all know her name is Sabrina but ever since we started talking I've always called her Brin or Brinny'Pooh. I was supposed to be at class by 8 am and here it is 7:30 and I'm just waking up. Whenever I laid next to her I could lay there for hours on end but she doesn't know that. I snoozed through 3 alarms before I finally got out of the bed. I was so comfortable just laying on her chest listening to her heart beat as she cuddled me close to her. Her heartbeat was a sound I came to know all too well.Before Sabrina my comfort zone only really included myself but now that she's in my life, she's became apart of it. As I'm rushing around our cozy master bedroom I catch her undressing me with her eyes as I put my clothes on, a small smile plasters itself onto my face and my cheeks burn bright red. I turn around and ask her, "May I ask what you're gazing at my love?" and all she uttered was "You.." in her deep, raspy morning voice. That alone sent my heart and tummy into a butterfly frenzy. She knows  exactly what to say and how to say it to set me off. If you haven't noticed Brin is the love of my life and I wouldn't have it any other way. She's like my best friend and lover all wrapped into one. I feel so comfortable around her. We share the same likes and dislikes for the most part. She's just amazing..'sigh' I pray she never leaves me and if she ever feels like she needs to I also pray we find the strength to fix whatever is broken. Little did I know that she was going to break my little heart in the absolute worst way. "Gimme kiss baby" I am finally dressed, car keys in hand, lunch packed for the day now all I need is a kiss from my honey and I will be set to go. As she leaned into to kiss me she hesitated slightly but then followed with the most passionate kiss we've ever shared. She stared into my eyes and said "Eli baby I love you with everything in me and don't you ever forget it." The way she stared into my eyes as she said that, my soul dropped into the pit of my stomach and I could tell something wasn't right. I felt it..we have that soul connection. She's not right today. Her energy is off..she's holding something back from me. God I wish I knew what it was or that she would tell me. "Brin baby what's wrong? You're not yourself this morning. Is everything okay pooh?" Elyza she's not going to tell you whats wrong you know that. Face palm yourself you idiot and I should've known that she wouldn't. This day had to be the worse day of my life and little did I understand or come to terms with that I would have many more of these awful, gut-wrenching days and they wouldn't be coming to an end anytime soon. Lord help me..I feel like I'm going to need it.