I rushed home after a busy day at work my boyfriend joel was in the kitchen cooking "in here rach" he shouted I dumped my bag in the hallway and walked into the kitchen he leaned down and kissed me before handing me a beer "cheers babe" I told him "what you making" I asked him "stir fry" he told me "you thought anymore about what I asked you this morning" he asked "yeh I've looked at how busy I am for the next few weeks and I can't get anytime off" I told him he'd asked me that morning to go on tour with him and work was so busy I wouldn't be able to I heard him sigh "if we weren't so busy I'd be there like a shot joel" he just shrugged "joel" "it's fine rach works busy you can't make time for me" "that's unfair joel I can't just give up my work to follow you" "I'd support you" "no we've had this conversation before I like earning my own money I've worked hard to make my business a success I can't just leave I thought you understood that" I said to him "I want you with me is that too much to ask" "at the moment yes it is I'm sorry I have a normal job so I can follow you round all the time" "don't make it sound so bitchy" he snapped "well is that what you want joel me following you round spending your money looking pretty" "I just wish you could come with me" "do you not think I want to be with you because I do" I told him slamming my beer down and going upstairs I sat on our bed in tears I wanted to be able to go with him but I'd worked so hard on building my business up I couldn't just walk away whenever I wanted to I heard joel come in the bedroom and felt the bed dip "I'm sorry rach I just miss you so much on tour I kinda wish you weren't so independent I wish you needed me" "I do need you joel I miss you so much when your gone don't ever think I don't need you I love you" I told him "I love you too so much promise me you'll try and come out even if its for a night" "I'll try" I told him "good coz I miss you" he told me kissing my head "come on teas nearly ready" he told me pulling me up off the bed we walked down stairs and ate our food joel went to start his packing I followed after clearing up and sat on the bed watching him "sure I can't tempt you" he asked "joel please" he nodded before going back to his packing we went to bed early because I had to take him to the airport I didn't I into the airport with him I never did it was too hard instead we said a tearful goodbye in my car "I love you rach" he whispered before leaving my car
