Fall Down {TaeBin}

I

Taeyang's pov

We're all in the living room waiting for the manager to come back from the grocery store: he was supposed to buy beer because we want to play a drinking game. We hear the door open, it's him

- Kids I didn't buy beer because you have practise tomorrow, he says taking out a bottle of Fanta of his bag

None of us complained, he's right we shouldn't be drinking alcohol if we have to practise the next day. He leaves the room as he gives us the bottle. We all had shots that we fill with Fanta. Dawon starts the game

- I'm thirsty so take a shot if you're gay

A few members are gay, Zuho and Chani are dating and Hwiyoung and Dawon are gay too. However I am gay as well but nobody knows it, not even Hwi who is my best friend. It seems like the perfect time to tell them, therefore I take a shot alongside Zuho, Chani, Hwi and Dawon. They all looked at me with widened eyes

- Guys sorry for telling it this way but I had never found the courage

They all congratulated me and told me I had all their support. As expected Youngbin hyung didn't take a shot, he is straight. I've been in love with him for 6 months, he was the one who made me question my sexuality. At first I thought what I was feeling was just admiration but as time passed I understood that I had to stop lying to myself.

Eventually we stopped the game and we all went to sleep as we have to wake up early tomorrow. I go back to my shared room with Hwiyoung

- I'm sorry for not telling you earlier, I say as I slide under my blanket

- It's fine I know how difficult it is. So tell me hyung do you have a crush ?

I don't know why I'm feeling nervous, Hwiyoung is my best friend I know I can trust him.

- Youngbin hyung

- But he's not gay

- Yeah I know, I'm an idiot for having feelings for him he will never return them

- You're not an idiot Youngbin hyung is handsome, nice, caring and funny I understand why you fell for him. Anyway nothing is over you can still make him fall in love with you

I rolled my eyes.

- You're crazy, instead of trying to handle my hopeless situation focus on Dawon. How things are going with him ?

- Still the same. My situation is as hopeless as yours

- No it's not. Dawon likes boys, you guys are fucking, you just have to tell him about your feelings

- I'm sure he doesn't feel more than attraction

- I'm sure he does now let's sleep

- Good night hyung

- Good night Hwi
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A week passed and we finally started our promotions. We are going back to our dressing room as we are done performing.

- We did well guys let's keep it up, the leader said

Someone knocked on the door. Youngbin told them to come in. I wonder who it could be, it isn't our manager nor someone from the staff, they wouldn't have knocked. Oh it's Winner sunbae, what are they doing here ? We all stand up and bow.

- Hi we just wanted to congratulate y'all because your stage was cool, Seungyoon sunbae said

- Thank you sunbae, we said in sync

- Yeah you guys were so cool on stage especially Taeyang-ssi, Mino sunbae added

Wait a minute, he's talking about me.

- Thank you very much

We talked a bit with them until their manager came to get them. As soon as they left everyone looked at me with a smirk.

- I'll buy a drink and when I come back I hope y'all stop being weird, I say making my groupmates laugh

- Wait I'm coming with you I want a drink too, Hwiyoung says as he sees me stand up

We leave the room as we go to the vending machine. I buy my drink and wait for Hwiyoung to buy his.

- Taeyang, I hear a voice calling my name

I turn around, it's Mino sunbae.

- Hi sunbae

- Hey I was wondering if you wanted to give me your number so that we could hang out from time to time

- Yeah sure, I reply before giving him my phone number

- I'll text you, bye

- Bye sunbae

He walked off. I turned back to see Hwiyoung sipping his drink, looking at me. I know he won't stop talking about this so I walk past him towards our dressing room. Obviously Hwiyoung catches up with me.

- A hot sunbae is into you hyung you don't know how lucky you are

- What makes you think so ? He just wants to be friends and don't tell the others about this

- Bestie I love you but it won't be possible you can't hide it from them

I shot him a glare as we go back inside the waiting room.

- What took you so long ? Youngbin hyung asked

- Hwi didn't know which drink he wanted, I lied

- Mino sunbae asked Taeyang hyung for his number and he gave it to him

The others congratulated me, but for what ????

- Are you congratulating me because I'm getting a friend ? Am I that friendless ?

- You forgot boy before friend, Dawon hyung said before bumping his fist with Hwi's

These two have to be together.

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We started promoting a few days ago but today we had no schedule. It's 8pm and I'm dressed up because tonight I'm hanging out with Mino sunbae. We got to know each other through texts, he is a fun guy. Obviously the others call him my boyfriend. I go to tell goodbye to the members as they are having dinner in the kitchen.

- Bye guys

- Tell him to put a condom, Dawon said making the others laugh

- Good luck the first time hurts like crazy, Hwi added

I ignore them.

- Leave him alone you two. Have fun Tae, Youngbin hyung said smiling to me

His smile is the end of me.

- Thank you hyung

- You should put a jacket it's cold outside, Inseong hyung advised

I went back to my room to look for a jacket and Youngbin hyung entered my room, sitting on my bed.

- Tae wait I gotta talk to you