Fall Down {TaeBin}

XXI

Taeyang's pov

With each second that passed the kiss grew more erratic, more passionate. My legs tangle with his, our fingers find each other and intertwine like vines and before we know it we are sprawled on the bed, him above me. We break the kiss and look into each other's eyes, unspoken feelings smoldering in our shared gaze. Not a word is spoken of the nature of our enigmatic relationship and for the first time I realise that he might genuinely like me back.

I can feel the tender weight of his hand smoothing over my hair, his touch is so gentle and sweet that I could fall asleep on the spot. He tucked hair away from my forehead before breaking the silence

- You're always beautiful but you look much more beautiful when you show off your forehead

If he keeps doing these things to my heart I might not survive.

Youngbin's pov

WHY THE FUCK DID I SAY IT OUT LOUD ?! Yesterday night I spent the night thinking of our weird dynamic, to be very honest I could barely sleep knowing that he was in another man's arms. I came to terms with my bisexuality but at first I thought it was only physical attraction with Taeyang. However I realised that what I want with him goes way beyond something you want with someone you're only physically attracted to.

I want to hold his hand and kiss him and take him on cute dates and cuddle him while we watch dumb videos on YouTube. It's not right though, I have a girlfriend and he has a boyfriend. I'm so jealous of him, I hope he knows how lucky he is to get to love and be loved by THE Yoo Taeyang. I don't know how he feels about me but I assume he most likely feels physically attracted to me and he wouldn't leave his boyfriend for me.

Taeyang clings onto me as I sit up on the bed. He's so cute he might think I wanted to leave the room but what he did just now was unexpected. He climbed on my lap, straddling me. I put my hands on his hips and we just spend a few minutes looking into each other's eyes. I could spend my whole life looking at him he is so beautiful and I hate myself for realising things so late.

Me loving him kind of makes sense because I've always had a soft spot for him, I remember when he had gone out with One and I waited for him to come home or when I was being weirdly possessive about him hanging out with Hyuntae. I should have seen it coming.

- What are you thinking about ? Asks Taeyang pulling me out of  my thoughts

- You

He nuzzled my neck, cutie thought I wasn't going to see him blush.

- Tae look at me

I wonder if I should speak up and ask about the status of our relationship, I feel like what makes it special is the fact that we haven't spoken on it. However I need to know and I'm also scared, what if I tell him I want more and he rejects me ? I will ruin the friendship we had before and it will affect the group; as a leader I shouldn't let that happen.

- Say it again, he mumbles on my neck

Feeling his breath tickling my neck sends shivers down my spine.

- Tae

He looks up at me, his eyes shining. I don't say anything as I pull him in for a tender kiss. I know I'm in too deep but at least I know he is attracted to me as I am to him and I get to kiss him therefore it's not so bad.

After a while we break the kiss, running out of air. Do I do it or not ? Fuck it I'll do it and if it gets awkward and ruins the group's mood I'll own up to it and find a way to work it out with him.

- Tae ?

- Hmm ?

- Do you umm, you know, want to go to the movies with me ?

WHAT THE FUCK THAT WASN'T WHAT I WANTED TO SAY

- Oh sure, today or another day ?

- Today

- Okay then let me change

- I'm gonna go change too

He gets off my lap so that I can get up. I was feeling so comfortable with him on my lap. I leave his room, my heart is pounding, I'd better not fuck up.

I quietly enter my room, I know Dawon and Hwiyoung are sleeping so I'll try not wake them up.

Hwiyoung's pov

The door opening pulled me out of my sleep, I assume it's Youngbin hyung. I was sleeping just fine in Dawon hyung's arms but I can't blame Youngbin hyung, it's his room after all. I feel Dawon hyung moving which means he's waking up, well I am gonna act like I'm asleep.

- Sorry for waking you up dude I'm just changing clothes

- No problem but try not to wake Hwi up. Where are you going ?

- To the movies with Taeyang

So now they're having dates, I feel like a lot happened in our room.

- That's so cool, what happened back there ?

- Nothing much we kissed and when I was about to ask him about his feelings I asked him out instead

Dawon hyung is laughing and so would I be if I wasn't supposed to be asleep.

- Are you gonna do it ?

- I don't know, what if he doesn't feel the same way ?

DUMBASS.

- Don't worry hyung everything's gonna be okay

I assume Youngbin hyung is done getting dressed since Dawon called him a hottie. I can't even be jealous, I can't see his fit but I know he is stunning.

I hear Youngbin hyung take what it sounds like his car keys and leaving the room after Dawon hyung wished him good luck.

- When are they gonna realise ? I wanna cuddle you every night, I said without bothering to open my eyes

- Oh baby I knew you weren't asleep, he replied chuckling, don't worry it's only a matter of time until they realise and we can go back together

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I said I would update in April so I didn't lie to y'all hahaha. Once again thank you for your patience and see you soon, next chapter might be between May 10th and 20th if my laziness doesn't act up