Selenas POV:
“So what babe? It’s just a club appearance they’re paying me a crazy amount of money to go too.” Justin said as he threw on one of his favorite v neck shirts and started to lace his shoes.
“I just want you to stay home J.. we’ve been apart for so long and you’re going to go out already?” I said trying not to sound too sad. But I was. It wasn’t fair of him to do this to me.
“Go hang out with Taylor for the night.” He said as she shrugged off my feelings completely.
“She’s sleeping… you know she’s rehearsing for her tour.” I said with a little bit of annoyance in her voice.
“I’m coming home tonight Selena. You should be happy about that my god.” He said as she finished lacing his shoe and walked out of the room quickly.
I sat there in my room, alone, feeling worthless. I wanted Justin to come back in here so I could scream at him how much I hated him and how pissed I was at him. Anything to make him snap back to his senses. Could he really be this cruel and oblivious to my feelings?
I felt tears swell up in my eyes and start to run down my cheeks. I kicked off my pants and curled up in a ball on my bed squeezing the life out of the teddy bear Justin had gotten me a few months ago until I fell asleep.
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“Selena, baby.” Justin whispered in my ear.
I felt his face get closer to mine then I felt his strong hands push me over slowly on my back.
“Selena, please. I’m so sorry.” Justin said as he tried to wipe something off of my face.
“Whatever Justin. Let me sleep.” I said rudely as I rolled over “Plus I actually have to wake up at a reasonable time tomorrow I have shit to do.”
“It’s only 1130 babe…” He breathed on the back of my neck.
Justin walked out of my room a little before 11 so it had only been 30 minutes? I felt like I had been sleeping forever.
“Then why are you here?” I replied with even more annoyance in my voice than before. I was happy he was here, for whatever reason. But I couldn’t let him know that in case he had just forgotten something.
“I never left, and I’m not going too. I’m sorry babe, I was being selfish. I want to spend my night with you.” He replied sincerely.
I didn’t know how to react. I was still so mad, and still upset because of how he just ignored my feelings. But he was here now, didn’t that count for something?
“You really pissed me off.” I breathed as I rolled over meeting his eyes.. his gorgeous hazel eyes.
“I know babe, I’m sorry.” He said and I could see he really meant it.
I leaned in for a kiss but he pulled away and reached on the side of the bed pulling out a small box of chocolates.
“I made it to the end of the street, then pulled into the gas station and grabbed these for you.. then came back here. I’m an idiot I know it. But I’m really sorry Selena.” He said giving me his adorable half smirk.
“I forgive you.” I replied with a kiss.
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My dream ended and I woke up again, but I woke up to the same blackness I had been. I tried to move any part of my body, but it was still hopeless. So I laid there searching my mind for more memories that I could occupy my time with and try to escape this new black reality I’ve come to face every time I wake.
Just as I was picturing my old home in Texas I heard the door to my room open. There were two people walking in, I felt the same odd tingly sensation I get when someone touches me and I felt someone tuck some of my hair behind my ear.
“You listen to me Selena Marie. You are going to be alright, and you’re going to come back to me okay baby.” My mom said as her voice cracked and I felt the weight of the bed shift.
“Stay strong for us Selena alright, please. We can’t lose you.” Brian said as I felt something touch the top of my forehead then there was silence.
The silence was the worst, my senses seemed to be getting better but I couldn’t tell what was going on. Why were they telling me to stay strong? Was something happening.. if something was happening where’s Justin. He had been coming in every couple of hours singing to me. I felt my brain start to panic, but my body didn’t react.
I heard the rolling sound of of Justin’s wheel chair. Or so far, I was guessing it was him. He mentioned to his mom early about his wheel in his chair sticking. I wish I could ask why he was in the wheel chair, but by the sound of his voice he wasn’t going to be in it forever. Or he was just so worried about me, he wasn’t making it known how upset he was that he will be in the chair forever.
Fuck.
I’m getting frustrated all over again, I wish I could just wake up! It’s not fair, I want to see everyone’s face again and not just hear their voice. I tried to flail my body around to get any reaction out of any part of my body. But it was hopeless.
“Hello Everybody.” I heard a man say as he entered my room.
I heard two footsteps around me bed then I felt an odd feeling in my chest, which crawled up my throat then just stopped.
What is going on?
“Alright, let’s do this.” The man spoke again.
I heard a few quiet footsteps a click and then silence. I waited for someone to make a noise, or say anything. When I felt a heavy sensation begin to push on my chest, every second that passed the worse the feeling got. And for the first time I felt something, I felt my heart beating in my chest. I could feel it pumping harder and faster. I knew something was wrong. Something was terribly wrong. I tried to move but that seemed to make the weight grow harder on my chest.
I was so overwhelmed with fear, I didn’t know what to do. What could I do? Nothing. I laid there until it felt like my heart was about to jump out of my chest and then it just stopped. Everything stopped.
I heard a loud steady beeping noise in the background of everything, but it slowly started to fade away. I felt like I was floating, or flying away. Far far away from wherever I was.
