' Teimin's POV
Kakaba ko lang sa sasakyan ko pero heto na naman ang mga salitang sobrang sakit sa tenga. Simula nung mangyari yun, Parang wala na kong rason mabuhay pa.
Nag lakad ako habang nag bibingi bingihan sa mga sinasabi ng mga Studyanteng nakakaalam ng mga nangyari
Akala ko ay kaya kong mag bingi bingihan hindi pala.
"Mikanika is really a bitch."
"She stall her sister boyfriend"
"She's so insecure to Teimin that's why she seduce Elioz."
Sobrang sakit lang madinig ang mga salitang yan para sakin. Bukod sa pinapaalala nila sakin yung nangyari i just can't stand hearing those words who their throwing to Mika. She's my sister, i get it! But..
Nag salpak na lang ako ng earphone sa tenga at vinolume up ko ng sagad.
Sa di inaasahan pag ka likong pag ka liko ko ay nakita ko si Elioz na dala ang bag ni Ate Mika. I've tried my best to not to look again.
Sa bawat hakbang ko ay bumibigat ang puso ko, sa bawat hakbang kong papalapit sa kanila ay durog na durog na ang puso ko
When i passed through them i saw in my peripheral that Elioz and Ate Look at me with those Filty sorry Eyes.
Mas binilisan ko pa ang pag lalakad at umaktong di ko sila kilala na parang walang nangyare... pero mahirap... sobrang hirap!
Pag ka pasok ko sa room ay umupo ako sa second in the last lahat ng mata nila ay nakatuon sa akin na akala mo ay nanonood sila ng pelikula
Tinignan ko ang relo ko at nakita kong may 10 minutes pa bago dumating ang Prof namin napag desisyonan kong umidlip muna habang wala pa ito
"She's so beautiful"
"Right! I don't know why Elioz break up with Teimin like It's given that Mikanika is also pretty but she becomes ugly because of her attitude"
"Shut up nandiyan na si Elioz!"
Nakapikit lang ako habang nakikinig ng kanta ng Paramore nang may maramdaman akong umupo sa tabi ng tabi ng upuan ko amoy palang niya ay kilalang kilala ko na. Amoy pa lang niya ay onti onti na naman akong nadudurog at pag dating sa bahay ay kailangan ko na namang ayusin, ipag dikit dikit ang durog na durog kong puso
Ng tumigil ang kanta ay sinyales na nandyan na ang Prof namin dahil nag alarm ako kaya tumigil ang pinapakinggan kong Tugtog. Inilagay ko ang earphone ko sa Coat ko at pati na ang phone ko
Nang pumasok na ang Prof namin ay agad na nag libot ang paningin nito at tumigil ang mga mata niya ng makita ako
"Ms. Zullion pinapatawag ka ni Dean Mijares" matipid ang ngiti nito dahil alam niya i decided to be an exchange student.
"You can go now" dagdag pa nito tumayo na ako at kinuha ang bag ko napatingin ako kay Elioz at ang mga mata nito ay parang may ideya na malamig akong tumingin sa kanya at agad din akong nag iwas ng tingin at dire-diretsong lumabas ng room at nag lakad papuntang Dean's Office
Dean's Office
"Good Morning, Ms Zullion. Please sit down" saad ni Dean umupo ako at humarap sa kanya
"You know that--' di ko na ito pinatapos humugot ako ng malalim na hininga at humarap sa kanya
"Dean i know that you can't transfer me to another school but you are aware what is going on. I can't maintain my good grades here. I just can't" saad ko napabuntong hininga ito at nakangiting tumingin sakin
"You really amuse me everytime. Kawalan ka ng school, Teimin you know that. You're the representative of this school, what we suppose to do now"
"Just... i just want to transfer to M.T.I.S, i really appreciate that you can't let me go but my priorities for now is to focus to my study and i don't think i can focus here anymore."
"It is nice to have you Teimin you're legend."he joked around
And we laughed.
"I'm letting you go now, but if you want to go back here you are most welcome."saad nito ngumiti ako and we bid a goodbyes
Lumabas na ako at sinapal ko ang ang earphone ko sa tenga ko and sa nakasanayan ko sa mga nag daang araw I volume it up
At pumunta sa next class ko i decided to finish all the classes i have before going to M.T.I.S and i ran some errands too and after all that
Here i am walking toward my car when i hear Elioz voice and... Mikanika voice. I didn't want to hear what their talking about but there is something that pulling me to listen
"Do you still love her huh?!" Pag sigaw ni Mikanika
"Do you know that i just use her right? I explain it to you that i don't even love her i just care about her and that's it. No more no less"
Para akong natanggalan ng hininga ng marinig ko iyon akala ko kaya niya ako iniwan dahil he just fell out love and then this is his reason he used me to have my Older sister. It's Bullshit!
"But i feel bad for her Elioz, She's my sister."
"I'm sorry for being Insensitive baby, i just don't know what to do anymore. I'm blinding with my love for you. I risk everything to have you. When i kiss her i wish the you are the one who i kiss.. same goes when i hug he or suprise her to our monthsarry and anniversaries i wish that you are the one who i celebrating with. So please can you just be.. just don't feel sorry okay?"
I can't take this anymore.. this is too much..
Umalis ako sa kinakataguan ko at nakita ko ang pag ka gulat nila
"T-Teimin"
Sobrang sakit marinig ang pangalan ko mula sa kanila i feel when hearing my name from them i feel like they're cursing me
Agad akong sumakay sa kotse ko at mabilis na minaubra ito my vision is all blured but i manage to drive home
When i got home i quickly go to my room and locked it i just cry all night not minding if i need to eat i just don't care anymore. For that moment i feel like i'm going to live with no care.
I heard my phone ringing and i get it and i saw dad's name i calm myself and i cheer my voice
"Hey,Dad!" ,
[Hello to you to Honey, i recieve your message, so you agreed to be an exchange student?]
"Yeah"
[Why?]
"I want to have a new environment, and I just want to be independent."
[And guess what, i agreed on you honey, My little princess is a Matured woman now. And if you have time now you can transfer your things to your Condo that your mom pick for you. It's 2 block away to M.T.I.S]
"And what about the-"
[Your mom and me decorate your condo as like your taste by ourselves and you just have to do is. Transfer your things you want to.]
Hindi ko na nakayanang mapahikbi dahil sa pag pipigil ko
[Why are you crying honey?]
"O-Oh, it's no big deal. It's tears of joy because i appreciate all your efforts dad. I love you daddy, i have a lot of things to do. Bye dad"
[I love you, honey.]
Pag ka patay nun ay napatingin ako sa kisame and i question myself
Do i deserve this
Do i deserve this pain
This heartaches
"I don't remember that i've do bad things to deserve all of this. Why is this happening to me?"
And i cried my heart out..
