dead girls don't wear plaid

chapter 7

(Dean’s P.O.V)

Katie’s been gone for 2 weeks now. I still can’t get over the fact that my little sister is gone, and I let it happen. Why didn’t I just keep them with Sam and I? Why did I ever pray to Cas? I feel like the worst person in the world.
Marissa is sitting in the lobby of the bunker with me. She hasn’t talked to anyone since the day Katie died. She’s still overwhelmed over this whole situation. I don’t blame her.
“You want something to eat kiddo?” I ask her as she stares blankly into space.
She shakes her head no but remains silent.
“You need to eat something Marissa. You haven’t eaten in three days.”
She shrugs.
“Well, let me know when you change your mind. But, starving yourself isn’t going to bring Katie back Marissa.” I say to her, not thinking.
“Woah! Dean, you need to calm down” Sam says as he walks in from his bedroom.
“Okay, okay. I’m sorry Marissa.. But I’m sick of her starving herself because of this!” I say and I angrily rush out of the lobby.

(Sam’s P.O.V)
“I’m so sorry Marissa.. Dean has his own way of coping with these kinds of things.. Especially when it comes to family. He’s still blaming himself because he wasn’t there for you and your sister. But I promise everything will get better.” I say as I sit next to Marissa putting my arm around her.
Marissa begins to cry and she lays her head on my chest and I hold her tightly. I feel tears welling up in my eyes too.
After a little while, she lifts her up. Makeup is running down her face. I get up and get her a tissue.
“We need to kill Lilith, Sam. I want her to pay for what she did. I want her to suffer. I want to torture her the same way she tortured my sister.” Marissa says as she finished cleaning off her face.
“I know, kiddo. Just calm down, okay? I want her to pay as much as you do but we just need to stay calm and collected.” I say trying to reason with her.
“I agree with her!” I heard Dean yell from the kitchen.
“Shut up, Dean!” I yell back towards him.
He’s not very good at reasoning with people. He’s a shoot first, ask questions later kind of guy.
“Don’t listen to him Marissa. I promise I’ll take care of you and help you get through this okay? You just have to keep fighting.” I say and I hug her tightly before walking into the kitchen.

(Marissa’s P.O.V)
    Yeah always keep fighting. For what though? I can hear them talking about lilith in the other room. I needed to get out of here. I wanted to kill her, no i needed to kill her. I have so much hate for her. I can't believe that i ever trusted that woman. I just wish my life was never messed up. So i quietly grab my things and throw my shoes and coat on, but i stop what i was doing to make sure Sam and Dean were still in the kitchen. I heard Dean’s voice get louder and Sam trying to keep him quiet. I know they are just trying to keep me safe, but at this point i don't care if i die anymore. You see the thing is Sam and Dean always had each other but me and katie, we found each other and became what we have or had. So Sam and Dean will be fine without me, they were fine when they didn't have us before. Tears starting to burn my eyes, I miss her but I have to focus on Lilith. I wipe away the tears, I am so tired of crying. Just as I was about to run up the stairs, Castiel suddenly appears.
“Where are you going?” Castiel says grabbing my arm.
“I just need some air.. All this talk about Katie and Lilith is just making it worse,” I say back to him as tears start to roll down my face, “I just need to take a walk and get my mind off of everything.”
Castiel finally let me go and I start to walk down the gravel road away from the bunker. As soon as I got a far enough distance away from the bunker, I started to set up what I need to. Soon after I finished he appeared right before my eyes. As soon as he saw me he had a  relieved look on his face. He had a sad look in his eyes.
“Marissa I'm so sorr--” he started to say.
“No i can’t if i hear it one more time I’m going to start throwing punches” I say holding my hand up.
“Ok i won't say anything.” he says sadly.
“I need you to do something for me.” I say a little eager.
“Sure anything you want sweetheart.” he says putting a hand on my shoulder.
“I need.. You.. to make a… deal with me.” I say.
“NO! absolutely not, are you crazy?” he yells at me.
“please i can’t deal with her being gone, and you know out of all people any family of the winchesters never really die. So here i am living up the the name.” I say.
“Well what will happen to you, she comes back and you go to hell. How will you come back?” he says.
“I don’t know but trust me i will be back.” i say.
“And if i do, do this deal and that’s a big if you will only get five months. And that is not enough time.” he says.
“I DON’T CARE! Don’t you get that i just want her to live a happy life with Sam,Dean, and Bobby.” I say with tears streaming down my face.
“Ok i will do this deal BUT you have to keep in touch with me i miss my little girl.” he says
“Deal.” I say.
“ so how do we do this?” I ask.
“You just would sign right here on this contract.” he says. So i did just that i sign my name marissa singer right on that dotted line.
“So that’s it? I ask.
“Yeah that’s it.” he says.
“THANK YOU!” i yelled as i hugged him.
Soon after i started to pack up and crowley left. I started to walk back to the bunker. I got to the bunker and walked inside with a smile on my face.
“I haven’t seen that in a while.” Dean says to me.
“What are you talking about?” i ask him with an confused look on my face.
“You were just smiling.” he said with a smile upon his face now.
“Oh shut up I can’t smile now?” i asked him pushing him lightly.
“Well i didn’t say that. It’s just what has you all gun ho happy all of a sudden?” he said pushing me back.
“Nothing i just got some fresh air and calmed down and thought some things over. Now i’ve calmed down and i not mad any more, well i am still mad but i am cool and a cucumber.” i say.
“Well that’s good but cool as a cucumber? Really? You haven't said that since you were a kid.” he say laughing at me. I don't say anything I just laugh along with him. Sam walks in,
“Hey you guys what’s so funny?” he asks.
“Nothing.” we both say.
“Guys!” we hear castiel in the other room calling us.
“What cas?” Dean asks as we all walk into the lobby of the bunker.
“I think i just found Lilith.” he says looking up from the laptop.
“What?” i say looking at him in shock.
“She’s in lawrence, kansas.” he says.
“Why is she back home? Sam says to Dean.
“I don’t know but we are gonna kill this mother ---.” dean says before i interrupt him.
“Well what are we waiting for?” i say packing my bag.
“Woah you're not going kiddo.” Sam says.
“What do you mean i’m not going? Oh i am going i’m going to kill her.” i say
“Well what happend to cool as a cucumber?” Dean says.
“Well that was before i knew where she was.” i say angrily.
“Fine you can go but you have to stay in the car.” he says as he and Dean are packing their bags.
“What?! No, Dean he can’t be serious?” i say to Dean
“He is right kiddo we can’t be worrying about you while this is going down plus we can’t lose you too.” he says i don't say anything else but i just walk outside. Soon after castiel walks up to me.
“Are you ok? He asked me.
“Yeah but i have to tell you something but you can’t tell Sam or Dean especially Dean.” i whisper.
“What is it?” he asked confused.
“Ok i...umm.. I made a deal with crowley to bring katie back and i need you to keep her safe please.” i beg him.
“What? How long did you get?”he asked me. I didn't answer him because i knew i would make him more angry then he is now.
“How long did you get marissa?” he said a little louder.
“Be quiet, i got five months ok.” i say.
“That's not a very long time marissa, but i will take of katie. But you need to tell them sooner rather than later.” he says before disappearing right before my eyes. Just then Sam and Dean walk out of the bunker.
“Took you long enough.” i say as i get into the backseat. They looked at each other. They look like they are have some sort of mind communication going on. But i just look out the window. I know i need to tell them. I just don't know when or how to tell them. I know dean will be so mad but hey he got his little sister back.