The pregnant maid

Apologies aren't enough

Calvin P.O.V

I've officially done it, i have killed my own child. I have broken the heart of both my mother and of the woman i loved. She still lay on my bed lifeless. Eyes closed and faint breathing. 

"Sir don't look so scared, i was about to say that the baby is fine, the child is just distressed and started moving about a bit too much, also i have noticed that along with the stress, Alaina's blood level has gone up a bit too much, which is dangerous for a woman as heavily pregnant as she is. Has she been hit, that may be what caused her to stress out, making her blood levels shoot up. I advice she moves away to somewhere else that would case her less stress, if she does not do that then there is a possibility she may loose the baby." She said

"You advice she moves somewhere safe, somewhere she would receive less stress and somewhere her blood pressure would not go up? Right?" I said with anger in my voice. "What do you know about my wife's well being and health concerns, you are here to make sure she and my baby are OK, so leave. As long as she is OK, then that is all you are needed for, perhaps that is what you are payed for right?" I completed with an eyebrow raised. 

She looked at me shocked for a long time, then replied with " Sir with all due respect, that is not what i meant, all i wanted to say was that she should stay in a n environment where she would get some...." 

"Oh please, i got you here to make sure she is OK, and you have confirmed that she is fine, so what are you still doing here, as for her well being and comfort i'll organize for her to go for holiday, so that she can relax till the baby is OK." I said. Obviously i'm not because i cannot let her go, i can't risk knowing that there are men out there who would take her and treat her better than i do. She is mine and mine alone. I lover her, a lot more than i heve ever loved anyone. 

She looked at me, then at Alaina and finally at my mother, before she shook her head and sighed. I glared at her and then she took her leave. I sat next to Alaina and stared at her, she is so beautiful, why i keep hurting her i do not know. I shouldn't have raped her at all, i was not sure if she would have given me a chance to be with her. I love her and i want to be with her. She has given me the greatest gift a man could ever ask for, however i want more from her. I need more from her. I just wish, there was a way for me to express my feelings and act on it without hurting her emotionally. 

I felt someone's hand on my shoulder and was not shocked to know it was my mother, she had been with us through everything and she is still trying to make sure things are done the right way, as she knows that my feelings for her are strong. 

"Son, i'm glad she is OK. It is still early hours of the morning, go and sleep, i'll stay with her till she wakes up. You need to apologize and it would be best if after apologizing you let her go."

"I'll go sleep mum, i'll also apologize, but i will never let her go. Mother I've found the woman who my heart belongs to. I have found the woman who makes me feel complete, i have found...."

"IF YOU HAVE FOUND A WOMAN WHO IS EQUAL TO WHAT YOU WANT AND EVEN MORE, THEN WHY DO YOU KEEP HURTING HER, SHE DOES NOT DESERVE THIS AND I WILL TAKE HER AWAY FROM YOU ONCE SHE WAKES UP." She all but shouted.

"Mother i...."

"HMMMM, AWWHHH" i heard someone groaning behind me, the person groaned almost in pain, in panic i turned around so fast, i almost got a whiplash. There she was. She opened her eyes fully, allowing her to adjust to the bright light, i almost forgot that it was still early hours of the morning. My mother quickly rushed to her side and helped her sit up carefully, she then ran back to my side and got her the bottle of water which i never knew was there and gave it to her. When she had enough, she looked at my mother and smiled, while she told her that she was fine. My mother told her the baby was fine, just that she had to make sure to take things easier from the time being. Alaina nodded and then tried to lay back down again. Then she looked in my direction and saw me sitting there. Tense and ridged. She stopped breathing. Then began again. 

"Alaina, angel i'm so...." She held a hand over her head and the other in the air. She silenced me. No other woman has ever done that to me. Yet she did. She closed her eyes and allow the tears leak out. My heart broke. I broke. I caused the tears. I caused the agony. I caused her the regret. 

She stood up and turned to my mother. 

"Mrs Alonzo, please help me pack my belongings, i am going to stay with my sister, at her university. I can't stay her any longer, i want my baby to be OK." She said with pain in her voice. Almost immediately, my mother started helping her pack her things. She then also packed her things along side my mother. I ran towards her and started pulling her bags away from her telling her she was not going anywhere. She needed to know that she was mine and she could not leave me no matter shat I did to her, i have never lived anyone. She is the first and will be the last. If she left i will be broken.
She ignored me and carried on packing her things.
"Leave me alone Calvin, I'm tired of being treated like an animal.  I do not appreciate getting raped and being abused."
I looked at her in shock, not just because of what she said, but how she said it with the pain in her in her voice. Anger overtook me almost immediately as what she said was absolute bullshit. I did not know what happened and I suddenly I lifted my hand and slapped her extremely hard, making her fall to the ground whilst clutching her cheek and her baby bump and also screaming. I stood there unmoving, shocked by what I  had just done to her. I hurt her again. I did not mean to do this though.  I was just angry because i needed her to understand that I owned her and she cannot move on to someone else. However as I stared at her, i could not help but wonder if letting her go would do her good.
She finished packing and went downstairs where my mother was waiting alongside the driver.
She went towards the door and was about to leave when I clutched her arm and knelt down before her.
"Alaina, please I am sorry. I sincerely apologise as my actions towards you have not being fair. I sincerely apologise." I pleaded desperate however, I could see the anger and sadness in her eyes.
"Apologies aren't enough Calvin. Apologies aren't enough." She said. She turned around and walked away.
"Alaina wait, you will let me see my child when you give birth right?" I said firmly.
"I'll think about it. "
"I already said I was sorry."
"And I said apologies aren't enough."
With that she walked out of the door