Lion & Kitten : The way to oneself

On days like this

My weekend ended up being a lonely blast, it felt good to just regroup with my ownself for several hours and meditate on where i am in life and where i want it to go from there.

I came to the conclusion that I was going to finally live for myself and think about the present more than anything, it has been several month, a year even that I broke up with my ex-boyfriend, we needed the change and most importantly I needed to learn how to live by myself and make my own experience walking life alone.

Thats how I came to buy this marvelous house on the Hills of Los Angeles, I couldnt feel more happy than when I realised that my life really had started finally. I am in a good spin no matter how sad i am right now, this feeling of loss will eventually go away with time, because time heals everything right?

The beginning of the week was slow, recording my album, spending time with Matthew after he harrassed me by messages for two days because i still hadnt call him back.
If there is a friendship I cherish the most, it has to be with him. We ve known each other a long time now, and besides his funny exterior, the good laughs we always share and those emo night we go to with Sirah, my other friend. You wont find a man as sensitive and supportive as him, he never once left my side and always had my back. He is like a warm blanket of security that I hope will never leave.

Thats how I find myself in a café laughing at some lines Matthew gave the waiter after he took our order.

- Matthew stop it, its so embarrassing I can't believe you are still using that lame line to try and lay yourself a date

-well what can I say? I will stop when it actually stops working, and maybe you should start to finally get some actions down there.

He said gesturing rather obviously to my downtown area, some minutes later seeing the young brunette waiter coming back with a smile on his face. Tom, as his name tag says on his shirt, desposit our drink on our table and swiftly leave a napkin with his number to my dear friend winking and leaving.

- seriously? I says while laughing, Matthew just wink at me and sips on his drink, like he just scored a homerun, which he probably will later on tonight.

Some hours later, after my coffee date and promises of meeting together soon, I am on my way to my Jujitsu training, in upperside LA. I park my car not far from it and begin my small journey towards the sports gym building, walking through the alley i stumbled upon a small hole in the ground and feel myself falling forward, closing my eyes i wait for the impact but weirdly the landing is much more softer than expected previously, as I open my eyes, I fell eye to eye with beautiful dark brown, nearly black eyes, staring at me cursiously and carefully, taking several more second for my brain to catch up on the situation I leap up quickly off the young brunette that cushioned my embarrassing and clumbsy fall, blushing nervously.

-I never thought that someone would take the saying « falling for someone » so litteraly.

She said chuckling to her own line, i cant help but let a tiny smile appear on my lips before laughing loudly, and to my further embarrassment I let a snort come out. She looks at me curiously, a small smirk playing at the corner of her lips.

- I am so embarrassed right now, you have no idea, thank you tho...
I say while trying hard to avoid looking at those inquisitive eyes, boring into me.

Some beat of time pass in a awkward but playfull silence of sorts, our eyes connecting before she spoke up again

- Don't worry we ve all been there some time or another...Im Lauren by the way, its nice meeting you...

- Cute... I mean.. Im Demi. My name is Demi.
I facepalm mentally and cringe at my uncoolness, I am so smooth normally this is a disaster..

-Nice meeting you Cute, I hope you arent as clumsy when working out.
She tells me her eyes full of mishief

- Trust me I am well coordinated in that area, aswell as for other much more interesting....

I cut myself off before making a fool of myself again, she smile and laugh, looking discretly at me up and down, i would have missed it if i was so caught up in her eyes and facial expressions, now its her turn to blush lightly knowing that I've caught her staring.

- Lauren!! Stop flirting and come back here we need to finish the shoot

A third voice break our bubble and thats when i realize that several people are watching our exange, as if it wasnt enough to embarrass myself in front of her, now her whole team saw it too.. great.

- I better get going, don't want to make you late... it was nice meeting you too Lauren, maybe our path will cross again if you keep on roaming this street...

I say with a playful tilt to my voice, trying hard to upgrade my game before escaping down the alley towards the gate of the gym, right as the gates close behind me I hear a faint voice.

- I count on it Demi, may we meet again

I let a small smile grace my lips and finally go change for my practice.

A few days later, on my way back from lunch to the studio, i come across a familiar face, looking on the ground checking if there is no hole on  the pavemeng,  i keep on walking, making my way to the beautiful brunette I met those days ago. I come to a stop just beside her, as if i didnt recognize her at all and was just there to cross the street, which somehow isnt a lie.
I can see her turn her head from the corner of my eyes and see the recognition in her slow rise of a perfect eyebrow.

- I see you can hold yourself up now, there was improvement with the gym.

She teases with a slight shove in my shoulder.

- I told you, I am well coordinated when I am looking where I walk that is.

- Where are you heading? I would guess the studio across the street but i dont want to overstep something you wouldnt want to share yet.

I let out a small laugh and wink at her, seeing the crosswalk fire turn green, just before leaving her side I cant help it, I turn around facing her.

- Wouldnt you like to know, maybe after this we could have a talk, a coffee in that café over there around 5:30 pm if you are available

- I accept your invitation, I will wait for you until then. Have a nice day

- You too.

I reply before jogging quickly to the other side of the street and entering the building for the second time that day.
I let my mind wander around thinking about that beautiful brunette, sensing a part of familiarity about her, maybe I ve seen her before, well I wouldnt be suprised since she was shooting some cover streetwear shoot the other day, for the small bit i could gather in my mind before fleeing inside the safety of the gym.

I enter the studio booth with her on my mind and a song playing in my head. Matthew might be right, I should let new people enter in my life and see where it goes. I put my stuff down, enter the booth and start to record the last small arrangement i made for my album, and i cant help but smile thinking about her trough the whole recording session.

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