Come In For A Bite

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Self-Harm
That is a serious word that should never come to mind.
But it did.
And I listened.
For two years I listened.
For twenty-four months I cried.
For a hundred four weeks I looked at the floor and blamed myself for it.

And the worst part is that I told you, and you did nothing.
Nothing but making me promise you to never do it again.
But after an hour you forgot about me, about us.
It has been two years since that moment, and I didn't keep the promise.
But does it even matter?
No for you at least.

Did you ever ask why?
Did it come to mind?
Why? Why? Why?
Let me answer that small question,
Because I felt NOTHING.
Just to feel a little sparkle I did it.
Just to smile at life once again.
In this earth,
You and God are the only ones that knew this.
I told you because I need help but you weren't the right type of help.
But everything is fine until it isn't.

Sometimes I wish you would disappear forever.
So I could disappear forever.