late night insomniacs

that.

No matter how we look at it that is how it is and It won't change until I change.

       I got out of the car helping with the small amount of groceries then going up to my room putting on my music not to loud but loud enough to feel it vibrating my room. I took off my pants and shoes and jumped on to my bed with a groan and I looked at my arm that I forgot to patch up I just sighed and sat up. I heard a knock on my door
"Harold I'm not in the mood-" I started"I'm not Harold." Said Alexis as she walked into my room and looked at my wrist and open wound bite mark slightly showing on my stretched collar on my shirt. She sighed "let me help you." I nodded as she got that one shit to clean cuts Neosporin and bandage. She can be gentle it's quite calming when she cleaned up whatever blood I missed poured then wiped up the stinging medicine she made me take off my shirts so she could get all of my open cuts and scratches, Ones from Tristan and from Harold. She then put the Neosporin and badages of different sizes debating on the side of the wounds. I layed on my back when she finished and smiled "thanks Alex." She smiled back not a problem." If you didn't get hurt doing some much ya know I wouldn't have anyone at home to practice bandage on. " She moved and layed on me her hands on my chest and I layed my hands on her mid back as she closed her eyes and layed her head to the side her ear over my heart "why is your heart beat normally so slow.." she mumbled with a sigh. Now your probably like wtf right now like I thought you were gay. I am. I just cuddle with Alexis sometimes. She's my best friend we are close tho we don't show it often.and sometimes it's nice to just to feel the warmth of someone without and attraction besides platonic.
I was so tired that I just fell asleep right there with her.

When I woke it was already the next morning and she was still asleep now on my side. I slowly got up so I didn't wake her as i got up put on a shirt and grabbed my laundry basket and the few clothes around it and went down to the garage. Throwing my wash in I saw Harold working on his stupid ass car he was trying to fix like those old cars that get fixed up and sold. He does that and sells them. You can probably say hes the bread winner of this house hold. It goes him Alex and me. He does this and works at a mechanic shop down the street part time. Alex is doctor shcool and part time nurse. And I just write sell art peices and jump jobs. I feel like a loser for that but they both don't mind thank God. Cause they make so much. I'm getting off track. I threw my wash in and started it as I walked over and sat on his work desk thing he's told be what everything is called but I don't fucking rember or care to. I sat as he had his back to me he had his speakers playing low as I swing my legs slightly. I cleared my throat as he stopped and turned around with a sigh and a eyebrow rasied
"Sup?" He questioned. I just reached my arms out in a little kid manner as he rolled his eyes and chuckled as he walked over and put his arms around my waist my arms around his neck " I m sorry." I mumbled into his neck. I feel like I need to cry. I don't wanna cry but I might need to. Harold rubbed comforting circles on my back with his thumbs as I felt tears welt in my eyes. shit. "It's okay."  He sighed as
He pulled away. I wiped away what tears fell and huffed "i-i don't know why-" he stopped me with a kiss on my for head "shush. I know. Look this passed how ever long everything has been hasn't been the best lets just have an off day. Lemme get to a stopping point with this and I'll shower and we'll all just sit and watch a film okay?" I nodded all I need was calm. "in the mean time get dressed and take Alex and you guys just get snacks and shit yeah?" I shrugged "yeah." He smiled and kissed me softly as I felt my face go red. He just snickered and helped me down. As I went upstairs suprised everything went okay so quickly. Its gonna bite me in the ass later but I dont care about that now all I care about not is o. The time now that I'm spending in this house with two of the closest people in my life. That's all I want right now.