Unexpected

unexpected (chapter eight)

It's quite late..... I am standing at the edge of the line..... Facing the sky, the beautiful  ,the endless,.... I keep one step closer and stand over the railing, which is paved around the rooftop. I am standing on it now, feeling numb.... Hypnotized by thought of being free.... No reminders, No sleepless nights.... No fear,... No anxiety,  no more pain.... Nothing... Just complete freeness. Tears coming around, covering my eyelids... Falling from cheeks by making it's way to the end... Without blinking. Wind blowing... Just like kissing every part of my body... Exploring sweet spots.  Seems like they wanna carry me along. My mind still focused. I hear my demons say inside... "no one could save me... Done... I'm done... HD enough.... Just one more step and surrender yourself to the empty ...just let go... I can't do this anymore... You want to be happy?  Don't you? Then end it...  Just another step.... Go ahead... Do it... "

I could barely see anything... Not a single sound was audible.... No more. Vision... Just a holy grail of light... Looks like inviting me to start it new...

"SUBHANGI!!!!!!! "  someone shouts.... It's so bold... Putting me back into my senses..... Wait.... I know this voice...

My head determined my heart... (don't look back.... Just don't.... No.. Please... Don't...)

I keep on trying hard to convince myself like that...thats the furthest where my efforts get me.. And slowly take another step... Suddenly... Someone took a hold of my hand... Tighter... And I stopped.  The grip turned me around. 

I looked up... It's him... (oh God... No.. I'm loosing it..)  his hands torched my cheeks... Our eyes met... His eyes were  wet.... Filled with innocent water  .but there was more to it... It's mixed with care, fear, anger..... And.... Love....(what? How?  ...)
My eyebrows wrinkles a bit... Asking way?  His eyes answered.... Why not?
it got silent.. Once again.......

And... I woke up.... My eyes hot opened by the sunlight falling straight to my face. Suzy must have drew the curtains ...
"mmmmhmmm" I said annoyingly, covering my eyes with the hands...

"good morning sleepy head..u feel better? "

" morning... Yeah.  .I'm  good... Thanks. " I answered.. Yawning..

"girl!  You look like a mess... "

I rubbed my eyes... And put on my glasses... "oh... Do I? "

" yeah... Kinda.. "

"huh?!  So.. What?  Who cares ?" I said still... Yawning...  putting my house slippers...

"okay... Your wish... But better get ready fast.  And get your ass to the kitchen.. At least care for a good breakfast! " she said before making her way to the kitchen.. 

" hmmm" I agreed while putting the brush in my mouth.  I mean.. Still. Foods better than everything , I guess.
Haha

So I got freshen up... Wasting the black and white top which said... " on lazy mode "
Pretty much suits my situation huh... I smirked looking at the mirror. Tied my hair in a bun and let out a sigh after  .
I walked to the kitchen.  I could smell pancakes. ...suzy knew I love them.
"here you go"... She said putting the plate, loaded with goodness in front of me.
I made myself comfortable. " thanks sweetie "
" like to have some? " she asked passing me the maple syrup.
I nodded ." sure thing. "
She took some on her pancakes and handed me the bottle. 
I took a bite... " delicious "
She blushed.. And joked with attitude "I know "
We both burst out laughing...
We were having our lunch... When the door bell rang. .........

( thank you so much for reading.  Sorry if it's late.. I was quite busy... Sorry again.  Don't worry... Next part will be there soon)  .xxS