Forgetting Me

[ s p a c e ]

No. I haven't proof read this.
And I have to feed my whale.
I know there'll be loads of shit here and there,
But please just don't mind them.
My whale awaits.
🐳

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"So how's it going there, Corri?" Yuan asks me through the phone. Even though there's two of them, she's more of best friend who stuck up with my drama and problems than Dani did. Because Dani apparently had a social life and hanged around the cool kids than us most of the time. But nevertheless, we loved her still.

"I'm more worried about you guys. Especially you." I said to her with worried eyes. I know it's stupid and insensitive of me to bring that up but I was genuinely worried for her family, seeing that her mom is still not found.

"We're fine. Don't worry. Dani's ignoring me but I hope she wouldn't, after all I'm leaving next week's monday..." she trailed off but I didn't say anything. Suddenly, I noticed she wasn't looking at me now, she was looking through me. "...and Mom's found!" Her voice was like an attempt to sound happy when it didn't and gave away a sad croack in the mention of the word 'mom' when she said the news to me.

I already knew why and it broke my already broken heart.

"Yuan... oh my god... Yuan..." I cried out, not wanting to voice out my suspicions. I've endured the pain of loss. Not only one, two or three but dozens of people. God knows how much I spent crying each night when the news came to me that all of my relatives that were so tightly knit to me died.

And I, at that very moment I received the news, was mourning the loss of my primary family.

"S-she was found half torn, you know? Almost unrecognizable..." she hiccups, as she continues with her shaky voice "she was located under a debris of the metal tower we have here... and... and-"

"Yuan, please. Oh god I'm so sorry"

All I could do was that: say sorry. Because I couldn't hug her, I can't fly there, I can't do anything that'll make everything better. Yuan was my sunshine, she always knew how to make me smile. She was the one who looked at dark and dreary clouds like rainbows and sunny days when I saw none.

Yuan wasn't just my best friend. She was almost my sister. And between the two of us, she's the more positive thinker while I kept the realistic persona, it balances us.

But seeing the person who always told you 'it's okay' and 'everything's gonna get better' wail in front of you, crying about why did she deserve this helplessly, was more undoing than the distance that divides us.

And I could only watch her cry.

I went downstairs for dinner. I didn't exactly had anything else lined up for me today so I spent it reviewing my books for college.

I saw Nora place two plates on the dinner table so I fetched some forks and spoons. She smiled at me when she saw me walking around helping her when as per usual, I would be still upstairs or outside.

"Is there something wrong, June?" Nora softly asks me before she paced through the hall to fetch our dinner. I followed her to fetch a pitcher of water in the fridge and some glasses.

"I... it's not me. It's my friend's problem" I said hesitantly. I wasn't sure if I could tell her; after all, it was not my story to blabber out.

But in a way, I do want to tell Nora. I want to ask her how can I help Yuan when all in all, I'm still stuck in my own dilemma.