WORD OF HONOR

Chapter 4: My Return

Dr. Heon followed me.

I went upstairs looking at every corner of the house. I felt like I returned being a six year old girl and my mom is holding my hand leading me to my room.

I stopped at the door of my room. Dr. Heon tried to open the door.

Matt followed us.

"Hey brother, what are you planning to do in my room?"

Dr. Heon did not answer.

Tears rounded my eyes but hold back. They must changed it into someone else's room. I was saddened when I heard him it was his room already. I decided to go and leave that place.

After another day, I went to Dr. Heon's house again. I saw his brother. He let me in in their house.

"May I go to your room?"

"Huh, huh, huh (laugh) What do you mean?"

"You told me that the room where Dr. Heon should open was already your room, would you let me see it?"

"O...okay, no problem."

(Matt opened the door)

My room was still my room when I last glanced.

All my things were kept carefully. I did not utter any word. Looking at my old things, from my dolls, my dressess in my glass cabinet my shoes collection, and everything. Everything is there.

I saw how Matt was surprised.

I pretended how I feel that time as if I do not long to see those things.

"We don't have a baby sister."

Then Dr. Heon, just appeared.

"Matt, your friends are downstairs, they're looking for you."

"I'm the only child but Matt came into our life when I was 7 years old. He was 8 years old that time. He was very lonely. His parents died because of car accident, but one time I overheard mom and dad fighting because of Matt's real identity. Mom initiated an investigation and not so long after she started she found out that it was my dad's child to someone else. "

I listened to him.

"Mom was very upset the following days that she usually went home drunk and brings no money on her wallet. She over spend money and did not care about everything, especially to me. "

I did not utter any word.

"Mom even wanted dad to sell this house but I pleaded to dad hundred times. Until dad pronouced that he will never sell this house no matter what happens. I was relieved that time but mom started to scream and yell to the neighborhood so dad decided to stay at our old house with mom and sent Matt to America with a nurse. "

I just listened to him.

"Then mom, got over the situation. When everything was fine, I personally asked mom a favor, to keep everything as it is."

I did not have any reaction.

"I would be very happy when the owner of these things will come back, and thank me for everything I've done."

"Why did you keep all this things for all those years?" I asked him but with doubt if he is really the one who kept the room with how it looked like before.

"Matt said there's a girl who usually visit here before he went back to US. Since then I really saw a girl coming every morning everytime I visit this house. Then on the time we were about to live in this place, yaya Tina told me a letter was left."

Dr. Heon looked for something, and then looked at me

'This is her letter."

It was my letter when I was six years old, just 3 months before turning seven.

"Do you see that thumb mark over there? It is my promise to take care of her things before she would come back...so please don't ask me yet to get rid of this, because I cared for these for many years. "

Dr. Heon showed my pictures when I was young but never did he notice that it was me. I want to say it was me but how can I?

"She's beautiful, isn't she?"

I just continue to watch the pictures.

"When I was in the second grade, I always imagine that she was there playing with me. I often go home as quick as I could because I feel like she's waiting for me. She often visited me in my dream pleading to grant her wish. That's how my first love happen."

"Do you know any reason why she left her things here?"

"Nothing."

"But why did you chose to live in this house?"

"It was my mom and dad who wanted to live here. "

"What if she'll return soon, are you going to take all this out?"

"Yes, if she'll tell me to do so, so that I can put your things here."

"No!" I shouted.

Being shocked, he asked why.

"Keep this things here. Do as what you promised. "

"Would that be okay to you?"

"It's okay with me. Okay."

"Okay then, don't worry."

At that time, I did my best to control my emotion. I know in myself that I am not yet ready to reveal about the real story behind my life.

I know and I believe that right time will come, and I should not hurry. And besides I don't want to tell him the truth, I am not even sure who is really the one who took care of my things. And besides,  I want him to discover by himself.

We are about to leave the room when someone called him in his cellphone.

I told him to go downstairs so he could talk comfortably. He had second thoughts but still he proceeded.

When I am sure that nobody is around, I immediately run near the secret door. I miss my other stuffs, my collections, and all.

Before I could press the secret button, seems that Yaya Tina's reminder was still clear that I should not open the door when somebody is around. I was very willing to push the button but at the same very nervous. I breathe as if I was too tired and worried.

Then I heard Yaya Tina's voice.