WORD OF HONOR

Chapter 14 I am different

Three months have passed. After a very long period of waiting, finally I opened my eyes. I glanced at the other bed beside me and I saw someone lying with the same apparatus all over her head and body.

I cannot remember anything. I can't recognize the person beside me. I was not comfortable to open my eyes so I close them.

I waited for someone to come over, but I did not feel nor hear any visitor that time. I thought I was just dreaming, but it's true.

I don't feel anything. I only know I was hurt because of the bandage around my head.

Then I heard murmurs coming near me. Just a few seconds, I felt my left hand holding someone else's hand. I did not let them know that I am already awake. I just let things to be done the way it is happening. But I was bothered so I moved my right hand.

They immediately called the doctor and nurses but they say it's just a movement done  by them.

Two days after I felt I'm awake, Dr. Heon woke up. He called my name. He cried because of being grateful that I too survived. He's very thankful I survived.

I was scared when he started to cry. Then the nurses came inside our room. Dr. Heon stand up and tried to make me recognize him but I really did not know him.

"Rain, please, listen."

I did not look at him. I d9n't really know him but I was moved when I saw he's crying. Tears suddenly roll on my cheeks.

I fell asleep so I did not know what happen next. When I woke up, Dr. Heon was in front of me. He's been looking at me for few minutes.

"What are you doing?"

"I just want to look at your face. I missed you."

I did not answer.

He got my right hand and placed it on his heart.

"Feel my heart beat."

Silence.

"Hey! What do you think you're doing?"

"Do you still can't remember me?"

"I think you are a bad person."

"Do you think so?"

"If not, then why I am here?"

"Can't you not recall?"

Then suddenly my head hurts. Doctor and nurses run into my room.

"Why, what happened?"

Dr. Heon get out of the room. My memories came back. I knew it's my fault why we were at the hospital. I felt guilty but I should not.
I did not plan to tell anybody that I already came back. Zaniah visited me. Dr. Heon's parents also came to see me.

But Zaniah stayed longer. I pretended I'm sleeping.

"Rain, I'm disappointed to you. I thought you will be happy with Dr. Heon so I gave up on him, but why is it that you're still unhappy. I feel guilty that even up to now, you're still suffering. I really feel bad and I don't know if I can be as strong as you."

I moved my hand to show my response.

"Rain, do you know how and when I started to love Dr. Heon? Mom said because he is the successor of the hospital. I told her it's not that way, but she always insist about it. Do you think it's the reason why I love him?"

I opened my eyes.

"Rain, do you know me?"

I nod my head.

"Do you really know who I am?"

"Zaniah, thank you for coming."

"Why are you here? Do you really want to end up here?"

"I don't have any choice. I don't know how to come back. I'm sorry, it's my fault."

"Did you...?"

"I'm really sorry."

"I might started to love him because he is rich, but she started to love you because..."

"I too, I too started to love him because he is rich and because I thought of him as the only way to get back what I own."

"But seeing him, how he has been doing, I knew I love him because he is him. "

"Do you repent now why you gave up before?"

"Yes, I repent why I chose to give up because I felt pity to someone like you."

"Am I not pitiful now?"

"No, because I hate you, I hate you that you can hurt and you can even kill him."

"No, he is okay now, he's okay now."

"Can you get lost, and give him to me just what I did?"

"Are you telling me to give up and let him go?"

"Is not that the right thing to do?"

"Why are you doing this to me?"

"Because you only do what you think is good for you, how about him?"

"But he's fine."

"He might be fine today, but how about tomorrow and the other day? Do you know he almost died when he was young because of his heart?"

"What is about his heart?"

"Do you know why he chose to be a cardiosurgeon?"

"Why, what is about his heart?"

"Uncle and aunt are not his biological parents. His mother died because of heart disease."

"Why are you telling this to me?"

"Because you forgot about him at some points."

"That 's not my intention."

"But you did it."

"But I did not know that..."

"Let's stop here right now, I think I have to go."

"Zaniah...Zaniah..."

Then Dr. Heon came in. He found out I am already back.

"Rain, do you remember me now?"

Zaniah looked at me then proceeded to go. Dr. Heon came inside.

"It's me Dr. Heon. Do you know me?"

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry."

"No, don't say sorry, I am really grateful and happy that you came back. I'm happy that you're here."

"How are you?"

"I'm okay."

"Are you not going to ask why we are both here at the hospital?"

"We were both hit by a truck."

"A truck?"

"Yes. We are both going to the hospital but we are hit by a truck."

In my mind I don't know how it happen. All I can remember is me plotting the accident with him just to cross our paths once again.

After one month of following Dr. Heon, I found myself being happy with small or the least things. I noticed how he find it too hard to live comfortably so I decided to appear.