The Consequences Of...

18.

"So what fruit or vegetable do i remind you of most?" I ask. Wrapped in blankets and curled up on Simon's floor watching a dumb TV show was not something I ever thought i'd be doing after meeting my boyfriends mother, but she's so laid back it's as if she would never think twice about it. 

"Fruit tor vegetable you remind me of?" Simon smiled widely and amused at the strange question. "And Why" I say. "Hmm...How about, a Tomato, because no one really knows what you are. You're also good in so many ways. Plain by yourself or in a group, whether it's salads or burgers you add a unique flavor to the world" Simon smiles proudly at his jaw dropping response. "That was poetic, i never thought i'd enjoy being called a tomato, but you just proved me wrong" I say, he laugh a whole hearted laugh. 

I don't know how long we sat in his room talking but by the time we heard the door slam and Simon's brothers rush upstairs we were scared. "You left us there without a car! Simon you abandon you're dearest brothers at school, we had to walk all the way here. Now we're going to be to tired to beat you up" Curtis says stomping into the room. Simon stood. "You couldn't beat me up even with full energy" He responds putting up fists. Curtis laughs. "And since when are you my "dearest brothers" Simon and Curtis share a laugh and tackle each other to the floor. "Oh, hey Mouse" Dylan says walking in. "Hi" Simon winked at me from underneath Curtis. I giggle, just slightly and Dylan walks over and practically lifts them off of each other like a giant crane. "Behave, Mom's home, we're going out to dinner tonight" Dylan says, laughing at his moronic brothers. "Where?" Curtis sits up at the word 'dinner'   "The Steak House, Mouse is welcome to join us" I smile. Dylan and Curtis leave the room. "Come on Mouse" Simon says, he reaches to grab my hand but i pull away. We hardly ever touch, even just hand holding, We'd never kissed either. Was he waiting for me to be ready, i couldn't think about it too much. If i thought to much i;d never think i was ready, first kisses are something i missed out on before, I don't want to do it again. 

We walk down stairs and out the back door. "You know, i think i've finally started to figure you out Mous-i mean Edith." Simon says. I shiver, but try to smile away my nervousness. We so much time together, and still i can never get used to him. His face softens and is smirk subsides to a sweet smile. His eyes look warmer, and i once again feel the urge to reach out and touch him. Just feel his soft skin and hold his strong hand, if only just for a moment. As he looks at me i know for sure that he wants to touch me too. So i pretend to be brave. Are you a man or a mouse? I've always been a mouse, time to man up..or lady up i guess. My feet, barley cooperative some how find their way closer to him. He's so quiet i can hear his heart speeding up, and i know mine is matching his speed. I have to look up to see his face. He's tall, and handsome, and he had tattoos and blue hair and color changing eyes and he's a jerk and i hate every part of him. But i've fallen, fallen from to high and broke into a million pieces. But it doesn't hurt as much as not being with him. I guess those are the consequences of falling in love. 

His skin is so soft. His hand send electric currents all over my body. My breathing is shot and reflex and i have to remind myself not to shiver. His lip are so close i can taste the strawberry chap-stick, or maybe it's just mine. We share chap-stick. We're so close, and Simon notices me looking at his lips. I haven't been hugged in a long time, it's really nice. I can't lave, I can't I can't but...what about my plans? No I don't have to leave Yet. Let it play out, he'll get board soon. Or maybe he won't, i hope e doesn't, but then again, i do. He's in my arms and his lips are on my lips and i'm scared of what to do and what not to do but it feels natural,. like it's right just for right now. He starts to deepen the kiss but pulls away a second short"I shouldn't think so much, cause i don't want to ruin this, but i can't stop thinking" He says. I force a smile, "What are the consequences of falling in love?" I ask closing my eyes and putting my lips to his cheek so he's whispering in my ear. I can feel my heart sway. "Falling and breaking" He says. I frown, not the answer i expected. "I'm sorry, i can't promise you the world" He says, i can't tell him he's sorry or angry or something in between. "I don't want the world. The world is annoying, i want you" I say sounding more like a Juliet than i ever anticipated. Simon laughs. talk about stunning. "We're not going to say love are we cause i've heard it said and it never seems to sound right" Simon says. "That's okay, pretty words have petty consequences" I say. And he picks me up and spins me around like they do in the movies that we watch. 

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"You should learn to like rare cooked meat, you'll get your meal five times faster" Curtis says sitting across from me, Simon laughed from beside me and Dylan smirked.  Ms. Strood smiled. "That's just stupid" I say, which makes them all laugh. 'Don't laugh this is serious" I say. "All the more reason to laugh" Curtis says. "You want some of mine?" Simon asks obviously feeling bad that he was half done and I didn't even have my own meal yet. "No thanks" i say at the offer of pink meat, i just don't like the idea of eating the raw insides of something, even if it's a little cooked. "Ew" i grumble. "Finally" Dylan says as the waiter brings over my plate and apologizes for the wait. I don't waist a second to dig in. Medium well is worth the wait. 

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"I'll walk Edith home" Simon says to his mother when we get back to his house. "Alright, be back before dark" She says, but i get the feeling that even if he weren't back by dark, she wouldn't mind much. The sun was close to setting, Simon held my hand tight as he walked. I could already hear my parents yelling. "They'll be gone tomorrow, you could come over  my house. They both have work" I say, he smiles. "I'll come over right after school, we should probably walk though" He says. I hear shattered glass. "Hey, it's okay" He says hugging me, I'm not sad that they're fighting, I'm sad because Simon has to hear this, and I'm embarrassed. "Hey, make a wish on the sun" he says. "Why?" I ask. "The sun is a star, you can make a wish on it an time you need to. The sun is the biggest star there is, so you have to make a big wish" he says into my hair, hugging me so close. For a  moment i'm afraid my parent swill look out and see us, but Simon's voice is so calming. and warm, and i can feel him release my worries. "Do you want to spend Christmas at my house?" He asks. "That's less than a month away" i say. "Yeah, will you? Your sister can to if she wants" he says. I laugh a little, the warm feeling grew, it hadn't left since he'd kissed me today. "That sounds so great" i say. "My mom will be there and so will all of my brothers" he says. I smile again. "That sounds great" i say. 

"Great. I'll see you tomorrow  Mou-Edith " 

"Tomorrow" i say. I'd never realized how much hope that word held until he said it. I love hearing him say it.