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Here I am. All the way back to California. I’m back. This is the place where it all started, my story. This is the place where I moved to from Stratford. The place which changed my life forever. It’s not just the place, it actually were the people. Alex was one of them.

He was one big mistake. That asshole was one big lie. The worst part is that I thought it was all real. I thought that he loved me just like I loved him, because what I felt was real. That’s what I thought before I became a slut.

Yes, that’s what I am. A slut. I’m not going to deny it.I didn’t want to end up here. It just happened. No wait, I let it happen. It was all my fault. Everything was so clear but I was blinded. Alex his fake love made me blind. I was too blind to see what he was doing to me.

He abused me, raped me, made fun of me and more. Our relationship was one big mess. Correction, my life is a mess. So here I am, getting ready with all the other girls. I look at myself in the mirror while I’m doing my makeup.

Watching fairytales as a kid made me think that one day I would find my prince charming and we would live happily ever after. But since being in the real world I know that will never happen, because happy endings don't happen in the real world.

Damn, I changed so much. Everyone was right. I changed a lot. I don’t even look like myself. I see a girl who I’ve never seen before. A girl who took my place because I’m dead inside. The girl everyone used to see is gone. She’s dead. She’s over. That girl gave up. That’s when the new Jasmine was born.

I look tired. I’m not surprised, I’m always tired. I didn’t sleep well last night. Why? I always stay up at night just late enough until I’m exhausted enough. Until I can fall into my bed and into immediate slumber. Because I can’t stand to lie in my bed in a dark room alone with my thoughts for so many hours.

Everynight when my head hits my pillow the darkness surrounds me. It feels cold and my head aches. There are images in my head overwhelming me, when every possible painful thing decides to creep into me. I'll be left again, all alone. Screaming.

It seems like I have been daydreaming the whole time. When I look up I see everybody is already gone. Shit. I’m going to be the last one again. Bryce is going to kill me. I swear to God he’s going to beat the living shit out of me.

As fast as I can I run out of the changing room. This time I’m really late. It seems like it’s already show time. Tonight Bryce took us to this new strip club. Tonight I’ll be one of the strippers so I have to hurry up.

“Jasmine!”

When I look up I see Bryce in front of me. Damn it! I’m busted. I don’t even know what to say. What am I supposed to say? Nothing I guess. I don’t know. All I know is that he’s going to be mad at me. His mad facial expression already says enough.

“Where the fuck have you been you little slut?” I roll my eyes at him for calling me a little slut. It seems like he doesn’t like that. He grabs my arm and pulls me closer to him.

“Don’t roll your eyes at me.” I don’t even bother to respond. All I want is him to leave me alone. I’m here to do my work, not to get called names by an asshole like him. I’m better than that. I guess he noticed that. The past days I have been a little off.

I still haven’t said a word to him. “Just go do your work, it’s your turn.” Finally! God heard my prayers. All I do is nod before he lets me go to do my work. 

It’s show time.

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