Sold

Welcome to my life!

After a long night of stripping, pole dancing and giving lapdances I’m finally done. Welcome to my life!

It was a long ass day and I’m tired. I feel disgusting, just like always. So many men has touched me already but I get used to it. I’m doing this work almost 4 years. That’s a pretty long time. I have been doing this since I was 15. Since then my view on life has changed a lot.

I changed a lot. I’m not that little teenage girl who is daydreaming about her crush anymore. That chapter of my life is already finished. Everything has changed and so did I. Nobody stays the same.

They say the path to heaven runs through miles of hell. I guess I’m stuck in hell. It has been 4 years and I’m still stuck here. All I’m really asking for is love, even though I don’t believe in it anymore. Everyday I hope to meet a guy who sees how much I’m hurting. To see I don’t belong here and helps me out. I know, it’s stupid. But still there’s a little hope left inside.

Everything has been taken away from me but the little hope I have left inside won’t be taken away. That’s all I have left.

I want to be loved. It’s so corny, isn’t it? But I just want to be loved by a guy who really loves me. I want to feel special, you know. I almost feel guilty for feeling it.

But I can’t trust anyone. Someone like me can’t ever love again. My heart is a graveyard where I buried my trust in men. There’s hope left, but all my trust is gone.

I guess I’m lost. I don’t even know. We all feel lost at some point in our lives. Sometimes in order to really understand and know where we want to go, we need to feel lost.

I thought that love was gonna fight. I thought that love was gonna take me home. I thought that love was gonna save me, but love just never showed. I thought that love was always watching. We learned that love was supposed to win but most times it’s the demons that are standing in the end.

Life is like a party. You invite a lot of people; some go, some join you, some laugh with you, some don’t come. But in the end, after the fun, there would be a few who would clean up the mess with you. And most of the time, those were the uninvited ones.

But nobody stayed to clean up the mess with me. I had to do it all alone but it’s too much to clean up on my own.

Something deep down in the middle of my heart is burning. It’s a fire, a fire that wants to destroy him, the person who ruined everything. And it’s too strong to stop it. I can’t help it, I can’t help that I’m heartbroken, that I’m sitting all alone, that I can’t eat, that I can’t sleep. Why? Cause my love is not here with me. He was my everything. And that wonderful dream, that dream that was burning inside of me, it’s not alive anymore. And now I’m just someone without a reason to live my life, because he destroyed it.

After me and all the other girls are done in the stripclub it’s time to go back home. Some of us never came back. Probably because they’re sold. If a guy thinks a girl is doing her job right and they give Bryce a lot amount of money he can get her. That’s how it works. We girls never stay together, but I don’t even care. I don’t have friends and talk to nobody so it doesn’t bother me at all.

At the moment it seems like only me, Tiffany, Kylie and Molly are left. We’re on our way back home. I don’t call it home. I don’t have a home. It’s just a place where I stay until I have to go to the next place.

The lights of many other cars on the road are blinding me. Just like usual I’m a little off. It almost seems like I’m living more in my head than in my body. That thought scares the shit out of me. I’m actually scared of myself.

Suddenly Molly her annoying high pitched voice disturbs me from my thoughts. With an annoyed look on my face I turn my head around to face her. “Did you see how much money I earned today?” she asks Bryce.

Molly right here is the real slut of us all. I’m starting to think she actually likes her job. I even think she wanted to do this herself. That’s why I hate her the most. She’s disgusting.

“Can you just shut the fuck up?” I hiss at her, clearly annoyed by her. She’s the most annoying slut I have ever met. We always fight.

“No.” Just when she was about to lift her hand I grab hers. “Don’t you dare to touch me or I’ll beat your ass to death.” I say in a low, deadly voice. I maybe seem like that quiet girl to her but everything is not what it seems.

“You sure about that?” she asks. She’s probably trying to look like a bad ass towards Bryce but we all know she just has a big mouth. Action speaks louder than words. That’s why I don’t talk much.

Just when I was about to react on her stupid question Bryce interrupts me.

“You both better shut up before I kill you both so you’ll end up in hell.” he yells which makes me get goosebumps.

“Too late, we’re already in hell.” I mumble sarcastic. Well, I am. Even hell can’t be this bad. I rather die and end up in hell than staying here to do this my whole life.

Bryce can’t appreciate my big mouth towards him. Knowing him, he hates it when someone is disobedient. He turns around and hit his fist against my leg, causing me a lot of pain.

I grab my leg and try not to show him my pain. He’s not worth it. I don’t understand why he has to do this to me and not to Molly. He can’t handle the truth. He’s too weak to handle it.

“Is it that hard to handle the truth?” I ask. I can’t keep my big mouth shut. This is not the best move I made. It's more like the worst move I made. I'm so stupid.

But hey that fucker deserves it. You know what they say, what goes around comes back around.

Bryce doesn't answer me. The silent is getting louder since the girls are quiet too. Silent is never good if we're talking about Bryce.

Nervously I wait for him to answer me. Is he going to answer me or is he that stupid he forgot I asked something?

When I look out of the window I see he just parked the car. We're home.

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