Her Admirer ||GOT7 Jinyoung fanfic ✔

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<Jinyoung pov>

I was at the venue of the photoshoot, still angry at Val. Thinking... wait knowing she cheated. I know I have no solid proof but a picture is good enough. She cheated. If she wanted to play like that, we could play.

It did break my heart, but i was more on the angry side after seeing the boy. I couldn't jump to conclusions since he was the one who leaned in but...

"Oppa, we are getting a break," Jisoo snapped me out of my thought. I looked down at the girl who I held in my arms and turned to the photographer but he was resting. Well, I guess we get a break. I removed my arms around the other girl and walked away from her but she grabbed my arm.

"Oppa, since we are having a break do you want to go somewhere?" She pouted and gave me puppy eyes. I really wanted to tell her to stop calling me "oppa" but that would be rude. I only want my Jagi... wait she cheated. Change of plans.

It hurt when I saw the photo. It hurt a lot. I kinda wanna let her know how it felt. I grabbed Jisoo's hand and pulled her to the back of the building. It was where Val told me she loved to go when she comes here for filming. Peace and quiet. According to her.

"Oppa why are you smiling?" I did not even realised that I smiled. Just at the thought of my Val made me smile. She brought happiness into my life and lit up my days. The mere act of thinking about her gave me happiness, but the amount of pain my heart experienced when I saw the picture.

My smile fell sharply and my heart started aching again. I looked down and than realised I was holding Jisoo's hand. Shit... my heart scolded me and banged against my ribcage to punish me for 'cheating' but i brushed it off.

I have been hallucinating, thinking Val was with me. I miss Val. I miss seeing her smile. But it hurt me to think that she was with another guy. I want to love her.

"Val..." I muttered softly under my breathe and felt a sharp sensation in my chest.

"Bwo oppa?" I shook my head at the smaller girl, and stared at her. We reached the end of the corridor. Honestly, she was pretty, but is anyone prettier than Val? Hell no... she's the only one.

Jisoo's eyes sparkled as I stared at her, unsure of what to say when her arms snaked around my neck pulling me closer. I didn't know what I was doing. If Val cheated does that mean we were over and I can go? It hurt but its the best.

I had no opposing movement and let Jisoo kiss me. Just the faint touch of lips jolted me up. What was I doing? Somehow, I couldn't pull away. The small kiss turned into a make out session.

My heart screamed at me while my brain told me to remain in this position. It was like little needles going into my heart every second that passed. Telling and begging my body to stop but I was stubborn.

We continued that for god knows how long I did not even realise footsteps. I only realised that someone was there when I heard a small gasp. I spun my head in the direction of the sound and saw the love of my life standing there.

But heartbroken. There was an unexplainable amount of pain flashing in her pretty eyes. My heart cried while my brain made me smirk. I guess thats what she gets for cheating as well? It hurt to see her in pain. But I did it anyways.

She looked at me with hurt and sadness shining in the tears that had gathered in her eyes. She looked like she couldn't even breathe.

"Why." She asked me shakily.

I did not know why either.

"Why?" She said louder, her voice cracking from emotion. I wanted to ran up to her and give her a big hug, shower her with kisses and explain. I didn't like seeing her hurt. It broke my heart.

But it was my heart. My brain remained adamant that she was in the wrong and wanted ti teach her a lesson. As much as my heart wanted to rule me, my brain was first. I just looked at her with a smirk, all smug.

"Why?" This time, the third silence made the accumulated tears fall, like diamonds. She could look beautiful even when she cried. I regret. But at the same time I didn't. Her tears streamed down her cheeks and she stared at me with an expression of agony.

"Why??" She suddenly shouted and ran to me and started hitting her small fist on my chest. I stared emotionless, but inside I was breaking down, I hated to see her like this. But somehow, I couldn't bring myself to comfort her.

"Did it not mean anything to you?? Why her?? Why me? Why must I be hurt?? You promised. It hurts. You don't get it!! I have loved you with all my heart and this is what you do to it?? I loved you so much! Why? Is there a problem with me? Why Park Jinyoung?? WHY??!!" She shouted

No baby, I love you, this relationship, us, all this, I treasure and love you with all my heart too. Please smile baby, don't cry like that, I love you more than anything else. Please understand and know, trust that what I said is true. I love you more than words can express.

I desperately tried to say but nothing came out of my mouth. I couldn't force the words out. I tried to put my arms around her and shower her with the love she deserves... I wished my heart could control me not my mind. Because now, my brain was in charge.

"Why?? What did I ever do to you?" She looked at Jisoo who was standing against the wall casually, her voice shook and she stuttered. I wanted to beat up Jisoo right than, for kissing me and letting my baby witness this. But I was to blame as well.

"You cheated to. Somehow it is okay for you to do something, but when I do it you act like a manic." I shrugged.

Fuxk you Jinyoung, you disgrace. Why did you say that? Do you not care about the girl you would die for? You made it seem like no big deal! My heart was saying one thing but my mind saying another. It hurt so much but I didn't seem to have full control over myself. I wanted to tell her it was a misunderstanding.

"Cheated. Cheated." She scoffed. Sorry baby, I never meant it like that I...

"The only cheater here is you!! You trust a soft copy picture over your girlfriend," she paused and licked her lips, "You know why? You don't trust me enough to even bother coming to me and asking me!! Where is the fking trust??? You call this relationship a relationship where there is no fking trust??? ITS A PICTURE FOR GOODNESS SAKE I NEVER CHEATED ON YOU!! I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO DO THAT!! I DID NOT AND WILL NEVER! BUT YOU DON'T HAVE THE FKING COURAGE OR CARE TO EVEN ASK ME!!" She screamed.

I stared at her in shock. What was the meaning of this? Are you telling me it was photoshopped? Or set up? What the hell?

"So you never cheated? It was photoshopped?" I chose my words carefully and asked her slowly, still trying to digest the situation

"Y-yes." She cried. "It did happen but we never kissed... I was mapping out the dance and he was looking at- it."

Why didn't I clarify and ask her first?

"How can I trust you..." I said, apparently my mind can't accept it, damn my brain. My heart trust her.

"THATS THE THING YOU TRUST A DIGITAL PICTURE OVER ME!! Why can't you see that I love you... you don't believe it do you... you don't trust me..."

No baby, I trust you, I know that we love each other, I do trust you, I'm sorry.

It made my heart crack into a million pieces seeing her defeated a broken small frame walk away from me. What have I done? Chase away the love of my life of course. Tears just fell, the only time I ever wanted to see her cry was on our anniversary or from happiness. But I made her cry from hurt.

She looked so upset, I wanted to ran to her and show her how much I needed and loved her. I wanted to get on my knees and beg her to forgive me. I wanted to kiss her and tell her everything was fine... but I couldn't.

The last thing was when her figure disappeared and I turned to Kim Jisoo, looking absolutely furious.