Damon X Reader

The tarot never lies

Hello! Just wanted to give a quick warning, the start of this fan fiction maybe triggering for some people.
I do not own any of the characters of TVD, and finally I hope you enjoy!

My heavy breathing and my screaming tears were masked by the strong winds on top of the mountain and the crashing waves that were so many 100 ft below the cliff.
It was peaceful, I'd never felt so alive, I could see why people would cliff dive in the summers, only I was in the location people never went, a location that flooded the news headlines with the highest suicide rates of our town. I was going to be a new statistic to those reports, I hated this, I hated that every day after high school I would stand here. I would spiral and then drive home crying to my steering wheel and whispering hopeless cries into the woods for someone to help me see purpose.
I closed my eyes, took a deep breath- 1...2..., and just like that the moment passed the tears dried and my restless breath stoped.
"You really shouldn't be standing so close to the edge you know." I know that voice, smooth clear and crisp as though time had been captured in his lips forever. English readings became a lot less boring with Stefan Salvatore.
"Can't a girl live life on the edge a little?" I turned and smirked at him, his brown eyes deep as the oak trees I'd admire in the woods, he lent on the hood of his car staring at me with his arms crossed. He was nervous, always nervous around me, always watching, at first I thought it was because I might have had something on me but it became a regular thing, which I ignored. Only now for the first time in 3 weeks since he started school Stefan has spoken to me.
"Well it depends if the girl is planning on jumping or just admiring the view?" He slowly approached, but I could see the conflict in his mind as he stopped a few feet away from me. Never wanting to be close, like I was art on a wall he admired me, though I never felt as though I was art more like a specimen in a jar.
"That's-uh- I'll take option 2, I better be going." I walked passed him, the flush of embarrassment had hit me like the waves hitting the cliff I was standing on.
"I'll drive you?" He states this but I knew it also was not only asking me but asking himself.
"No-no it's fine my car is not far from here." I started to keep walking, his mumbled words of protest didn't work as he got in his car and drove past.
Once I got to my car, I carried out my usual routine, bullying myself into why I didn't just jump and marked another tally in my diary of another day I didn't jump. I'm almost at 200 now.
Home didn't feel like home with just me in it, my family disappeared and in one more year the police will stop looking and pronounce it a lost cause. 18 years old and being alone felt like I'd been torn to pieces. One day I'll make it out of this, something will come into my life. A psychic told me once, I'll meet a person who will be "the devil but the good kind, the kind that allows you to be reborn" she told me "death tarot never lies".
My thoughts are broken as there's a knock at my door. The rain was falling so hard that the knocks were almost drowned out.
As I open the door a pair of crystal blue eyes stare it me, as his wet black hair steaks down his fore head and his white top clings to his muscles. As he looks up his mouth which was ready to say something with a smirk straightened out and his face looked like he'd seen a ghost.
All he said was one word, "Elena?" The pain in his voice pierces through my mind. I shoot up in bed, I can't remember getting in to bed, I know the thunder at 3am wasn't the cause to wake me up it was that name, the pain in his voice and then he vanished. But as he stared into my eyes and told me to forget him I couldn't, his desperate pleading "it's me Damon", I know that pain of wanting to be heard to be loved. But I wasn't Elena and I sure as hell didn't know who Damon was.
The only thing I couldn't grasp was, was I dreaming him or is he real, did death show his face to me?

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