Damon X Reader

I'm so human

Damon POV-
"Just compel her brother, it's simple, it's easy and its effective" I didn't want y/n to forget, I didn't even believe myself when I said it was a good idea, neither did the glass of bourbon I downed help ease the idea that I suggested.
"It's not that easy, why would she take the vervain Damon? She must know, someone has sent her to kill us again." Stefan he's paranoid as always, as if Elena would ever try to kill us again.
"Don't be ridiculous brother, Elena lost the element of surprise years ago and like I said I'm looking for her before she finds us." This didn't soothe him, he kept pacing back and forth in front of the fire, the urge to push him in it is starting to rise again.
"She is the only one we've seen for years, I can't let her go." He was as worried as I was about one thing Klaus and his obsession with doppelgängers, my mind also pinned the idea of Elena's joys of knowing she can hurt me.
"Then she has to know if she is going to be in our world" Stefan shook his head and smashed his glass into the fire place, angry and frustrated that this is all happening again.
"She is going to be no where near your world Damon." This hurt, why? I couldn't pin on it but y/n was refreshing.
"Ouch brother, well before I'm no longer allowed to see her at least let me compel her." I smirked and started to turn up the stairs until his hand gripped my jacket.
"Damon..." a warning with a flare of dark veins under his eyes.
"Can you brother? Seeing how your back on Bambi again" I pushed back and he let go while I fixed my jacket.
Silence pure and utter silence
"It's better than being the ripper again." For once I agreed with my brother. But yet the sight of those 12 empty blood bags was weighing in the back of my mind.

Y/n POV-
As I made my way down the stairs dazed and confused I listened intently to Stefan and Damon talking.
"It's better than being the ripper again."i griped the railing how much was I to endure and be exposed to? I looked at the clock on the wall it's only half 9 and all this has happened.
I walked back into the spare bedroom and searched for something sharp to hide under my pillow. Damon was coming upstairs, the ripper was downstairs, I just have to stay calm and if he tried to hurt me I'll use this... I sighed hopelessly, there's nothing in this room to hurt Damon. I accepted what is to happen, I don't know why but I was as calm as a hummingbird, still and in tune with how I truly feel.
Damon was shocked I was up and awake,
"Y/n?" He was sad, his eyes darted to the balcony window behind me, then I heard Stefan's car pull out of the drive. I accept this, all of this what ever is to come I accept this because there's no other choice.
"Okay," I paused looked at Damon his eyes were drowning me his confusion frustrated me to the core.
"Okay... what?" He stepped closer I didn't move, I was planted into the wooden floors.
"Okay I won't fight, I won't scream, just kill me quickly that's all I ask of you." The only sound in the room now was my heartbeat like thunder it broke the silence, Damon ran his hand through his velvet hair.
"I'm not going to kill you y/n, but why not fight back if I was going to?" He steps closer he's in front of me if I lifted my hand it would graze his jeans.
"I give up, Ive fought back all my life and look where it's got me." I looked far from his eyes at the oak door, I could run but I didn't, I could hit him but I couldn't.
"Do you trust me?" I laughed as I wiped my tear from my face.
"Are you stupid? you killed Stefan, you died and then chased me and now you are asking if I trust you." He started to walk away and at the door he turned back to me
"Look princess I'll give you two options either join me outside in the garden and I tell you what happened or leave, forget about all of this and I promise you'll never see me or my brother again." He left the room and air entered my lungs, I let out a gasp that felt more like I was hyperventilating, I put my hand to my mouth, then through my hair.
This wasn't a prank far from it, this was real, I was given an ultimatum one that I feel he knows I have to chose because how could I go on ignoring them? To lose this what ever this was, wasn't an option. So it's lucky I've given up on attachments because now i can leave alive rather than stay and die, that's what I repeated to myself in my head while my heart screamed to stay. I grabbed my things and walked downstairs, i pressured myself that I was to leave this house, Stefan, Damon and what ever the hell this day was. I had to act like I didn't know Stefan go back to being just y/n the way it used to be.That's what I wanted right? A normal life. To be strong that's who I wanted to be, I headed to the door and looked back that was my mistake. There was Damon staring at me in utter shock and pain that I was going to leave, I felt familiar to that feeling he projected like I had seen him this way before. I'm so human and this world, what ever it was, was not meant for me, right?
"Y/n?"