Damon X Reader

Save me

"How do I save save you-" the moment klaus left I gritted my teeth and dealt with the pain to help Damon-"Damon! How? How can I help you!?" Burning in my throat and tears ran down my face. His eyes saw my blood on my hands, his eyes instantly surrounded by black veins, he groaned and pushed himself away from me to be a few feet away.strangely I wasn't scared, I was worried beyond belief for him,
"Y/n keep away from me." He leans against the wall his head held up high for a moment then slouched down. I stared at my hands once more drenched in mine and Damon's blood and then it all hit me, as if I was completely blind, blood is the main function of a vampire it heals it's what they would kill for...
"I know how to help you Damon" his eyes peeled up again and utter defeat was in them he was so weak.
"Don't- I could kill you" he groaned after every word unable to move from the blood leaving his arms.
"You're dying Damon," I said bluntly, I moved closer dragging myself over to him.
"Vampires- can't- die-, but I could save you.my blood well vampire blood heals, saves and turns a person- seeing how you know the truth, I'll let you in on all the club secrets." He winked but every movement was painful for him, though pale before this was a scary grey pale, he was dying despite what he was saying.
"Damon you are dying why aren't you letting me help you!"
"Because I don't need your help!" he bit back, gritting his teeth.
"If you don't accept it you die, you won't find Elena, you won't be alive for Stefan, klaus wants me... I worthless let him kill me."
"If you even call yourself worthless again I will rip my own heart out understand, you are more than that you have always been more than that-" he paused to lift himself up more to be able to look at me, his eyes tearing up and the groan of pain he continued to talk despite his agony "that night the police told you your parents had disappeared, do you remember where you went?" I was confused, I was hurt and so was he now we are talking of the past when all around us in the present was falling apart.
"Damon why are you asking and saying all of this..." his tone changed the pain and agony making him restless and angry.
"Answer the question y/n" this wasn't the place to talk about all of my past.
"Why do you care where I went you are dying?!" I shuffled closer to him and placed my hands on his face, whispering for him to let me save him. He brushed me me off gently and continued to talk despite the amount of blood pooling on the floor, for a moment he looked human... not a vampire.
"You were at the coffee shop window at the outskirts of town, drinking tea and just stared at the rain tumbling down the window of the cold night, I remember the feeling of having to talk to you... I felt alive again...I sat next to you...your pain was drowning and heavy, you told me everything, silently crying, you told me death was the only option..." we had met before, suddenly images were remerging into the front of my mind, snippets of conversations and moments, the feeling of death weighed heavy on me but those blue eyes, I remember.
"Damon stop...stop talking..."
"You told me you were going to end it all, told me the feeling of standing at the edge of a cliff- I couldn't let you die- you radiated life even when you had lost so much..." I remembered my plan. I felt sick not because of the blood or this whole situation but because of this all of these memories resurfacing.
"Damon please..." I was breathing heavy pushing away from him and standing up everything was dizzy and dark spots clouded my vision.
"You told me your pain, I couldn't bare the thought of you leaving this earth not when-"
"Damon shut up! Please stop talki-" I was screaming at him, tears running down my face and my hands gripping and releasing my hair
"Not when I didn't even have the chance to know you..." I was silent unable to move, and yet the pain in my chest the scars on my wrists was a reminder of how much pain I have been in.
"So I compelled you, I compelled you to never jump to never hurt again... to feel hope that they were missing and not in the morgue..." my parents were dead and Damon made me forget that, he stopped me from jumping he had always been there, watching from a far,
"Please forgive me y/n, I never meant for any of this..."
"You made me continue to suffer alone... you made me believe that there was hope when I was supposed to be grieving and accept the truth." I was angry, I was in pain, he let me live knowing who was after me, knowing my pain he denied me the option to be free. So I will make him feel my pain. But he did save me... I owe him, and then I can leave all of this.
I dropped to my knees in front of him, his eyes searched for forgiveness, I pressed my wrist to his mouth, where he had no option to save himself with my blood.
I was being drained even more, I felt so unbalanced heavy and heartbroken. In some small sense I didn't want him to stop, I wanted to slip into sleep and him live with all of this. But he stopped, pushed himself to where I was earlier tied up.
"I'm sorry I'm so sorry y/n"
"Now we are even, the moment this is over -never- speak to me again." It was hard to finish the sentence the blood loss and heartache really does destroy a person.
"You know I can't do that" I stared at him through my hazy eyes and with the last amount of venom I had left in me, with the last bit of my heart being destroyed.
"I don't care what you want, you destroyed me Damon."
I didn't care for the burning on my cheeks or the weakness that I showed because that was what I truly was, broken.