Is it true?~Jachary

Chapter 15

Ashley's P.O.V

what did just happen?

i looked once again at them to make sure it was Zach and they were both laughing.

suddenly my phone buzzed but i quickly put my hand on the speaker.

Instagram:
jackaverymusic just posted a photo.

just after my phone buzzed their's buzzed too.

i took a quick glance at them and saw Zach looking at his screen.

i unlocked my phone and checked the photo,it's Gabriela and Jack, Damn it.

i scrolled through the comments real quick and everybody was freaking out already saying that Jabbie is real and shit like that

i locked my phone and looked at Daniel hugging poor Zach,i could barley hear him crying,i feel so bad oh my lord.i took a deep breath and just sat there thinking.

Zach used to like Jack.

Zach used to know Gabriela.

Jack likes Gabriela.

Jack is Zach's bestfriend.

Zach probably hates Gabriela.

but she's his bestfriend's girl.

that i guess is jealous of her.

UGHH my brain can't handle all this drama man this is so hard.

so Zach is gay?

i don't know.

Zach's P.O.V

After me and Daniel pulled away he told me that everything is gonna be okay and quickly left,i looked at the water and saw the reflection of my face..my pitiful stupid ugly face,why?why am i doing this to myself?
i'm so sick of this!okay?
i'm done!

I had a big glare on my face and decided to leave,i just can't stand being here anymore.

i kept walking few more blocks heading to my new "alone" place i guess hoping to feel a little better, the problem is that i don't even know what is this i'm feeling,i don't know if it's a good feeling or a bad one..it just feels like i'm a visitor in my own life,literally..in my own body and brain,i know that sounds crazy and stupid but..this is just how it feels like,and i don't think anyone will ever understand that.

when i was finally there and i went to my previous spot and just sat there on a rock with so many thoughts going on in my mind and just...so many feelings too.

i just want to run away.
i don't wanna be me anymore.
but i can't!the band,the fans,my family,my friends they are all connected together!and i can't just fuck their life up just cause mine is..
God!why did i ever get to meet Jack?
all of this is because of him,and he's not even worth it!

i stood up running my fingers through my hair"this is..this is disgusting!this is stupid!th..this is not supposed to be happeing! i'm so done of being weak,of being pitiful,of having feelings for the wrong person,for being worthless,for being useless and i just hate it!i hate myself and my life!"i said to myself but then realised that i was shouting"Gosh dang it!"i said and kicked the rock

"shit!"i said to myself and kept walking back and forth

i heard a noise and turned my head to see what's going on,it was already getting late.

"psst!"i heard someone i guess and tried following the voice.

"umm..h..hey?"who would be here at this time of night man what the hell? 

"i-it's just me"i saw that girl from the other night and holy shit she looks the same

"oh my God!do you live here or something?"i asked and she smiled

"kinda i guess"she said looking around her

"how?i mean isn't there like wild animals and stuff like that here?"

"not now,it's almost winter you see?and at this time of a year they leave to warmer forests"she said taking few steps closer

"how about you?"

"what?"

"how do you make it here in winter?"i asked rubbing the back of my neck

"it doesn't really get so cold here,also i have my own place"she was still smiling but when she got a little closer her smile disappeared

"what happened?"she asked pointing at my scars

"oh it's nothing!i was just riding my bike and ran into a car,but i'm fine though!"she nodded

"but why do you live here anyway?"

"i don't really know,i ran away from my dad years ago.I was young,like around 10 years old maybe, and one day i just found out about this place,decided to stay here for a while but i liked it here,so i stayed"she then looked at the ground and continued"and it's far away from people.you're the first one i've talked to in 4 years now!"

"how old are you?"i asked her

"can i trust you?

"what?"

"can i trust you?"she repeated with a scared tone

"yeah of course!"i said then added"i promise you"

"Promise?"

"it means something that i can't break or..lie about"i tried my best to explain

she nodded then i said"if you share your secrets i'll share mine"

"Really?"she asked raising her eyebrows

"yeah"i said

"Promise"she said nodding in a  questioning way

"yeah,promise" i said and giggled

"16 i think,i can't really remember my birthday"she said looking back at me

and let me tell you she's so beautiful

"when was the last time you talked to someone?you know 4 years ago"once i said that,she had that broken look on her,i could tell that she wasn't so pleased to remember whatever she just did

"you don't have t-"

"it was my friend"she said and turned around walking toward a big peace of wood

"he was the kindest person i've ever met in my whole life"she sat down and i came next to her but made sure there was a good space between us

"A really long time ago,when i was  twelve there was that boy that loved riding bikes with his friends around his neighbourhood,and one day..he decided to come and discover this forest with them,i was scared and terrified cause i was stalking him for so long already and thought that he wanted to come here and kill me!but i was wrong..."she said smiling to the ground like she was lost back there

"why?"

"do you want to hear the whole story?"she asked without moving her sight off the ground

"please feed me" i said and she looked at me

"getting food at this time will take a while"she said and i don't understand anything

"but i'm not hungry"

"you said feed me"she said and i couldn't help but laugh

"oh God,it means tell me the story"i said and she let out an "oooh" and took a deep breath

"okay you may want to sit probably for this"