The clock is ticking
Days are passing by and I'm still in the same place
While everyone is moving forward,
My feet are still stuck in this mud called memories
Desiring to change life, make it beautiful
Loving so hard when I know I don't receive the same amount
And everyday my heart is reminded that you exist
That we had a past
Though future doesn't seem to be found for us
Even if I crave for one,
You're already miles away
Not by roads but by the separate galaxies in our souls
The clock is still ticking
Now my life is passing by
Looking at my mirror and seeing the same person everyday
Selfsame face, clothes, hair ...
Wondering what it will feel like to be different
To see myself in another manner
But how?
If I'm unable to change who I want to be
How? If my friends don't rely on me
They don't believe what I say
I can't modify their thoughts about themselves
If they had my perspective, they can see how amazing they are
and everything they have and what they can give to this world
But who am I to say this when I don't even like myself?
That person in the mirror is not who I want to see
If only I change, I could confront my friends without hesitating
But I'm worthless, miserable, pathetic ...
I don't want to look at myself anymore
That's why I wonder why I keep struggling to be someone that people can flatter and see good qualities
Why I keep insisting to be this person that my head creates
Why I try so hard each day with exercise, eating, living my life, being positive with those around me
I guess I can only say that attempts is all what I have
And I must live with that hoping that everything will be alright
That maybe tomorrow I'll be someone new
So clock keep ticking
I will let my life pass by with all I have left

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