You Vs. Them (Jhene Aiko and Kendrick Lamar)

chapter 14

Mila POV

I slumped over the bed puking once again into the bucket that some kind soul had placed next to my bed. I groaned, my head was throbbing but I wouldn't even dream about swallowing any pills right now. What the fuck happened last night? I looked at my clock, 7:50. I shook my head and laid back in bed. Why was my entire body sore? My mouth felt like someone had taken a blow dryer and just held it to my face, I was thirsty as hell. I held out my tongue for a while hoping that it would make some kind of saliva quench the dryness but it didn't. I knew if I didn't want to feel like I was dying that I needed to get up and get water. I climbed out of bed not even bothering to cover the boy shorts and sports bra I had on, shit no one should be up this early anyway.

I made my way down stairs to the kitchen and grabbed a huge cup. It was one of those Big Gulp cups from 7'11 they were awesome because right now I needed a shit load of water to get over this feeling. I filled the entire cup with ice water and drowned my body in it, and refilled it repeating the process. As much as I drunk the water I still wasn't satisfied. I sat down at the table after refilling it for the third time and just drunk slowly thinking that would help, it didn't. I stood up but I was a little wobbly, Miko walked in.

"Good morning." she said. I groaned.  Her ass was being so loud right now. "Miko, why are you so loud? It's too early for that." "I'm whispering." she said. "Can you whisper a little more quiet then, shit." She looked at me side eye. "No I won't, I pay the bills and your ass is gone listen to what the fuck I got to say." I don't know why she was snapping so hard. "Last night was out of control, and I don't appreciate your behavior. When did you become so spoiled? Don't I give you everything you ask for? Don't I help you when you need it, talk to you, give you enough attention? You used to be able to talk to me about anything, I don't know what's going on with you but sweetheart you need to slow it down."

I sighed, she was so right but I really didn't want to hear this right now. With every word she spoke to me my head throbbed like a little midget was in there banging on the walls. "Miko, I swear to you if you let me sleep this off we can have this lil mother daughter talk later...I just can't do this right now." "No can do kiddo, we got shit to do today so no sleeping in." I sucked my teeth. "I hate you." I mumbled under my breath. "You know what? Fuck it! You so fucking ungrateful Mila! Keep your ass here. I don't give a fuck!" "Shut up!" i yelled back. "I'm ungrateful are you fucking serious! You act like you're this family's savior, all YOU ever tell us is how much you had to sacrifice everything for us, how your childhood was ruined cause you had to take care of us all, I wish Mama would have been a mother and maybe you wouldn't have to do everything for us cause we'll never hear the last of it!" She had tears in her eyes, and by this time Josh and Sweet-pea were downstairs.

Miko POV

"That's how you feel about me Mila? Huh? I do what I have to do because I wouldn't want anyone else doing it. Man ya'll could have been anywhere in the world right now, Child Protection could have came in and took ya'll away from me. You could have been in foster care but I handled that shit, I stepped up and I don't regret any of that shit. I love ya'll like you were born from me." I sniffled. I never asked for the life we had to do, none of did but I guess maybe I shouldn't have because you have a problem with it. You know what if you have such a problem with it you can get out. "What? Where am I gonna go?" she asked. I shrugged my shoulders, "When you figure it out let me know, until then get out!" "Miko no you can't throw her out!" Sweet-pea screamed clinging to me. "I'm sorry Sweet-pea." "Ya'll always arguing, Mila say sorry please!" she said running to her. She was too busy crying to say anything. "Miko you tripping, where the hell she supposed to go?" Josh asked.  "I don't know."

He ran upstairs and a few minutes later Kendrick and Abe appeared. "Babe, what's going on?" "Kendrick this don't concern you." "Excuse me?" "Just go, this is a family issue that I have taken care of already." "So now I'm not family?" It finally hit me how that statement might have made him feel. Shit. "Kendrick..I didn't--- He cut me off, "Forget it!" He walked upstairs. "Kendrick!" I was about to run after him. "So this conversation is over? You just gone run after him? You're not even gone handle what we got going on?" Mila said. " This was too much, for as long as I could remember when the pressures of life got to high I could remain calm. I couldn't remain calm right now. "You always think about him first." she said her tone was low and hurtful. "This is our family, not his." "Mila shut up!" Sweet-pea screamed, "You ruin everything!" "You shut up! Big baby!" "Mila you so stupid!" Josh said. 

They all just started arguing back and forth and right now I couldn't take this. I backed into a corner and just watched. It felt like the room was closing in on me and my breathing became erratic. I haven't felt this unsure of anything in my life. I slid down the wall as I watched my siblings go at it. I needed something, someone. My chest started to tighten. I haven't had asthma in years. "Abe." I called but he didn't hear me because he was to busy arguing with the rest of them. And just like that I blacked out.