Kierra's POV:
I'm here at the canteen with my friends. Among them is my boyfriend Xander. The fact that Xander is being unusually cold is nagging at me. He’s just probably just busy, but I couldn’t help but be bothered by it.
Out of the blue, a girl walked up to us. " Xander, c’mon let's go. Clariss is waiting for us, we have an urgent meeting" She snaps without glancing at me.
I wanted to tell her that I was right next to him, but I didn’t have the guts to do so. She irked me. I didn’t know why Xander was even giving her the time of day.
Xander just glanced at me before he got up and left with the girl. I was completely devastated. He didn't even tell me about that matter; he always does. I really don't understand him anymore. Lately he's been acting like this and it's been getting on my nerves.
"Friend, that's okay.” Eliza scoots nearer to me. “Don't get jealous, you’re much prettier than her." Everyone laughs.
Jealous?
“I'm not jealous!" I say rather hotly, but they kept on laughing as if it was funny. It was annoying.
"You’re definitely in denial, girl" Ashley teased.
I shot her a scathing look. She doesn’t even know what was going on.
“Shut it, Ashley!” I snap, losing my cool entirely. I gather my stuff and make my way back to the classroom. I needed to calm down.
I was angry and annoyed. They don’t know what they’re talking about. But maybe it’s because they’re right. Am I really jealous? “Argghhh” I don’t even know what I’m feeling right now. There are so many questions running through my head and it’s Xander who’s to blame.
“Kierra!” Someone called out. I turn to find Jeremy jogging towards me. “Are you looking for Xander? He’s with Clariss.” He was grinning, probably just teasing me.
"Yeah, I know" I said, hoping he wouldn’t notice the jealous tone in my voice. He’ll probably just make fun of me like out other friends did.
He grinned mischievously."A jealous girlfriend, perhaps?" He laughed. Argghhh. I don't know how I even managed to befriend them. Urgghh. They are so annoying.
"Ugh, I'm so sick in this jealous thing, I'm not jealous okay! I'm not!" I snapped, glaring at him before turning away. They weren’t helping at all.
I start to wonder if Xander and I were ever meant for each other, I just don't understand why he was distancing himself from me, his girlfriend. I know that we were fine these past few days.
But now? We’re not. I'm so tired of everything. I don't know if I love him, but I am sure that he is very dear and special to me.
"Where are you when everyone is gone?" I heard a familiar voice when I approached my classroom, but it didn’t sound like Xander. His tone would never be this icy.
"You told me that you didn't want me anymore. I will go, but in one condition.” Says the same voice again. “No one will be on your side, especially your loved ones,"
I wanted to look so badly, but I was terrified at the realization. I knew him. I know him.
A freezing and shiver inducing touch on my back. I dreaded what I’d see as I twist my neck to look.
All I saw were hands dripping with blood.
I screamed.
" Hey Kierra, wake up!"
At the voice, I slowly opened my eyes. Brittany and Mharvin were hovering over me. A dream? No, a nightmare. How come it felt so real?
"What happened to you? A nightmare?" asked Mharvin. I jerked my head into a nod, truthfully unbelieving that it was.
“Nightmare?” Brittany asks. “But it’s morning now!”
Her jokes never failed to make me laugh, but I wasn’t in the mood.
"Okay okay I get it Mharvin" Brittany said while covering her mouth when he shot her a look.
"What happened in your nightmare? Can you tell us what it is all about?" He asked me. I didn't know if I can share it now, I just needed to clarify things first.
"I'm sorry but I can't" I decline him, and he nods in understanding.
"Kierra! " Someone calls out my name. I identify the voice as Ashley. What's her problem?
"What?" I ask her in a snippy tone. I just couldn’t help it. I'm still angry with her.
"Okay, okay, I'm sorry for what I said a while ago. But just forget it okay. How about we go on a camping trip this summer? What do you think guys?" Ashley asked, glancing at us.
"Okay" We chorus. Everyone was excited, myself included. It was a really good idea. It might refresh my mind a bit and make up with Xander.
"Brittany what happened?" We ask, because she droped her phone to the floor. Tears started to stream down her face.
"Guys, K=kierra…X-xander body was found in his d-dorm, d-dead" Brittany said whilst crying hysterically.
What?
I don't know what just happened. It was just too fast. I just saw him earlier this afternoon--but now… now he's gone.
My first boyfriend,
My first love,
My first heartbreak,
I don't know what happened, it happened so fast that I don't know what to do.
Everyone's right, you'll just realize that you love someone when they're gone and now I'm too late to tell that I love him,
I don't know what to do.
Is this really happening?
Little by little my pieces went missing…
I think this is my fault?
If only...
If only...
I really don't know what to do..
My whole body is starting to shake, and my tears are starting to fall from my eyes...
All of us, all of them...
They are crying…
My heart is dying.
And I want my body to die too.
I want to kill myself…
My life is over.
Is this just the beginning?
Or the end?
