composer - songwriter • l.jh

6

Days passed and the negative feedbacks I decided to bury came back again.

But this time, it's mainly about our songs..

Comments such as the songs we have weren't even topping the charts..

It's alright if it's just me they're blaming to but I have the Seventeen name on me and that means.. they're also getting drag into this.

I already knew being the producer, composer and songwriter will have these kinds of consequences but I just can't take it that the future of our group will actually depends on me.

I'll be lying if I say I don't feel.. pressured.

And I hate it..

After our dinner, instead of hanging out with the rest, I decided to go to the studio.

If I don't want to disappoint my members, I have to work even harder.

Even if it means not getting enough sleep.

...

I

'm in the middle of composing when I heard a knock on the door.

When I turned, I saw Soonyoung with a paper bag and coffee in his hands.

"Hey, staying all night again?"

I nodded before focusing on my work again.

Silence engulfed us when I stopped playing with the keys and then Soonyoung started talking.

"Ji, what's the matter?"

Damn, I guess he read me.

"What do you mean?" I asked, trying to act as if I don't know the answer.

"You've been staying here for like, days now. Are you even sleeping?" I clenched my hand when I felt the worry in his voice.

"O-Of course.. You guys told me not to stay up late too much.. right?" I lied.

There was another silence when I heard him get up.

He walked towards me and placed the paper bag and coffee on my table. I waited for him to talk again but instead, he patted my head before I felt him walking out.

I let out a sigh before glancing on the paper bag and coffee

There's sticker notes attached to them with the messages, 'We're always here for you, okay?' and 'You're doing well~'

I felt tears began welling up my eyes and later on, I'm already crying out silently.

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