Midnight thoughts
As i lie upon my bed, 2am with these miserable thoughts coursing through my brain and feeling that familiar lump form in my throat. Now i just beg myself. "Shut your eyes and sleep." Or i say "just take a few sleeping pills, maybe you wont feel the same tomorrow" but honestly..the feeling gets worse with each passing day. It feels like i am suffocating. Why cant i just be normal? Why cant i just be okay? I dont like being so fucked up in the head. I dont like that i cant do anything about it. I want to die. Oh how i want it to end. You know just because im alive doesn't mean im living. It sucks. Being alive but not able to live. I dont really have anything to live for. So i dont know why im keeping myself alive to go through endless pain. Cant i end it now? Everyone says "just be happy" well what if my only happiness is dying? What if my only happiness is the darkness?? Then no one say anything. Everyone dies in the end so whats the matter if i want to die now or just wait?? My mind cant stop. Its spinning and i feel sick. I am tired. Im so tired. I want it all to stop. Please....let me stop it.
~ Anonymous
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My Mind.
Randomthis is my mind. this is what i think daily. the questions i have about life, or humans, ect. all these thimgs race through my head everyday so this is a way to let it all out. ill try to write everyday.
