I haven't eaten today. Im proud of myself. It hurt at first but once i took a look at food i instantly felt sick. I drank water all day. It doesn't hurt as much but it's okay. It'll get easier soon. Soon i can decline food easy without hesitation. I am glad i have control for once. Once i am skinny. Ill be pretty. I wont worry about a mirror anymore. I wont worry about pictures. I can have control i can do it...
......but what if i cant? What if i eat then vomit? Ill be bulimic...that scares me...i mean i wouldn't mind getting rid of food easily but vomiting makes me paranoid...ill have an anxiety attack if i vomit..so ill try my hardest to not eat...tell me i can do it..i need reasurrenc...
~Anonymous
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My Mind.
Randomthis is my mind. this is what i think daily. the questions i have about life, or humans, ect. all these thimgs race through my head everyday so this is a way to let it all out. ill try to write everyday.
