Twilight: Bella vs Tanya

Bella's Issue

“Honey are you ok”. We reached our house Bella turned her head and sighed.

“Edward I have something to tell you”, she closed her eyes and breathed heavily. She looked so troubled she wasn’t making eye contact with me. oh crap my inner thoughts screamed.

“What is it”, my voice was filled with concern. She sighed again hesitating to tell me. I walk over to her trying to enclose the gap between us, I hated being away from her.

I lightly held her chin tilting up so she can look at me.

“Hay, baby what is it”, I whisper. Her eyes bore into mine and she sighs.

“Edward… I know she’s family but I-I… don’t like her being around you”, she murmurs.

Of course she knew or she suspected oh god there was nothing my wife needed to be jealous of… nothing.  

“It annoys me when I see you with her, when she somehow finds a way to be alone with you… Edward I can’t stand it”.

“Oh Baby”, I whisper and hug her. “Is that why you’re upset”

“Edward w-what has she”, Bella closes eyes and sighs then opens them again her  amber eyes looked so sad and filled with a hint of hurt.

“I mean h-has she, have you… did she say anything to you, did she do”_

Oh Bella my beautiful over thinking wife.

“Bella, love, no, she”, I stroked my wife’s face and sighed time to fess up.

“Ok… Tanya still has feelings for me she claims that she still loves me, but I told her I don’t feel the same”. Bella closed her eyes and jaw tightened as if she was in slight pain, oh god, Bella was never fond of Tanya ever since I had told her about Tanya when she was human and how she had interest in me Bella didn’t take it well, infact she always thought I deserved someone of Tanya’s standards and telling her this now only makes this situation worse. Oh if only I could read her mind now.

“I knew it, t-that’s why she’s here isn’t it, not because of her sister but because she”_

Her eyes snapped open and they were suddenly replaced with anger, her eyes darkened and she gasped. Oh god.

“Edward…is.. is she here because of you…I mean is she trying to take you away from me” her voice softened into a whisper. Oh I mentally cursed Tanya, I cursed the fact that she was bringing my wife this much pain, she needed to go home, she wasn’t welcome here. Oh god w-what do I say.

“Bella” , I whispered with sadness in my tone. She knew of course she knew.

Her facial expression deepened into a frown and I swear if she was human she looked like she was about to cry. Bella please don’t be upset.

“That’s the reason she’s here”, Bella gasps loudly.

“She wants’ to separate us, she wants to take you away from me”

“Bella that will never happen, you have nothing to worry about I love you and only you” I cupped her cheeks but she avoided eye contact with me and sighed.

“I knew it… part of me knew her staying would come to this… Edward I can’t compete with her”.

“I can’t be good enough for you I never could have some how she’d find a way”. I stepped back whilst my eyes widened as I gape at Bella as if she has to heads, her words was like a painful slap in the face, half of me felt numb, I wanted to kick Bella infact I wanted to do worse which was terrifying for me because I have never ever thought about being violent towards her I was shocked by them that I couldn’t control the gasp in my throat. Did this woman really think she wasn’t good enough for me!!! I mean is she bloody crazy. For one second just for second I thought that when I changed her all that bullshit about her not deserving me and her not adding up to my beauty would be thrown away but here we are both fucking equals… BOTH inhumanly beautiful vampires and she still claims she is not fucking good enough for me… was she mad…. I thought we have gotten over this I thought that everything would be OK now that she was a vampire but she still had doubts… did she not think that I loved her enough to be with her forever… did she think I was going to get tired of her and then…then leave her…again.. did she really think so small of affection and the eye that I only had for her…. Did she still fucking think that she was still not beautiful for me and most of all did she think that I, that I WOULD BE UNFAITFUL TO HER!!!

“WHAT”, I growled causing her head to snap up looking up at me with panic in her eyes.

“DO YOU THINK I WOULD LET THAT HAPPEN…BELLA HOW CAN YOU STILL SAY YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME”

She shook her head and breathed.

“Because I’m not, Edward I can’t blame her for loving you she has for so many years but it hurts Edward it hurts that she’s so beautiful and I’m not even half of what she looks like she knows she has a chance that why she’s not giving up”.

I grabbed Bella’s cheek in my hands and stared fiercly at her.

“How many times am I going to tell you that it’s only YOU that I love and only YOU that I see, why would you think so little of the love that I have for you”.

“I don’t, I…. Edward there’s always something that’s pulling us apart no matter how happy we are… there’s always a situation between us and even when I was human but now it’s still the same”…

 “Edward I don’t want her to take you away from me”, she sobbed. I pulled my wife in my arms and my face scrunched up in pain as my wife’s sadness.

She was right there always seemed to be something that would inflict pain on both of us… everything should have been over when we were made Equals but no there had to be another obstacle standing in our way…. No matter what there was always an issue that craved to tear Bella and I apart.

“Bella Tanya will not come between us… you know that, I’ve never loved her and I never will please don’t over think this, I love you, you’re my life my everything, please don’t forget that”

She held on tightly to my embrace locking her arms round my neck.

“I’m sorry”, she whispered.   

Oh my Bella. In occasions like this she would frustrate me to the point where I got so mad, I never wanted her to think she wasn’t good enough for me. I had to get Tanya away from my family and away from here… She will not come between Bella and I….

Bella's Pov

 In such a long time I’ve never felt so hurt, so troubled and yet so powerless. I just knew it, I knew it would come to this why else was she here. Urgh! can I blame her can I possibly despise her for loving my husband after all she had feelings for him before I was even born or even came into Edward's life what was painful is that I was fully aware of just how good enough she was for Edward and I-I well I always believed that I could never be weather I was a vampire or not. Yes I now believe I am beautiful but not as her. How the hell could I compete with her, oh god, the look on Edward’s face was plastered in my mind when I told him that, He thinks that I have the thought of him leaving me again…. I well.. god even in my thoughts I feel like I’m betraying his love for me I still believed that someday he will get bored of me and walk away from me… Urgh, I know he promised forever I know how much happiness and inhumanly affection he's showed me, how much he’s expressed his love for me but I stayed true to my thoughts ever since I met Edward… there will be something always tearing us apart, somehow I will never be good enough for him and I have her to throw it in my bloody face  URGH for fuck sake now when Edward and I are happy NOW  that we’ve cleared everything up with the volturi TANYA wants to steal my husband away from me.

Before I know it I find myself panting my emotions mixed with anger and discomfort, I just want us to be happy, I just want us to live our lives without anymore situations. Now that she’s hear she’s not going to give up she never will, and what can I do? The only thing that I can do… fight…. Fight for my husband despite the fact he deserves so much better than me. I will fight for him… no matter the issue Edward is mine. I can’t bare to go through that pain of ever being separated from Edward and for once I felt powerful, I wasn’t no stupid human who couldn’t do shit. I wasn’t no weak pushover who would dare let anyone tried to claim what was mine… yes I was bloody insecure but for god sakes I wasn’t about to wrap Edward in a gift basket and openly hand him to her and say “here there you go”  I paced up and down our bedroom suddenly feeling so possessive and yet so fearless, I don’t give a shit how long this would take I was going to fight her if I have to, I can’t compete with her beauty but I can  fight for my husband, fight for my mate…..