My Life As The Oldest Sibling

Goodbye High School...

I remember my freshman year, I thought that for the next four years my life would change for the better. It did but not in ways I expected. I lost friends, gained some new ones, and I wasn't messing around with people and their feelings like the othe rhigh school girls. I never dated in high school, but I've watched friends go through relationships like I go through Monster Energy, and people got hurt. By the time sophomore year came around, I got smarter and my group got smaller. I achieved things that I didn't believe I could. So much drama was made and I just sat back and watched. I was shy for the first two years. I joined FBLA, a buisness type of club. When I was a junior, I came out of my shell. I was more social. My music, which was rock, got heavier. My mind was on business classes, I was set on a business major. So far in my high school life, I got all A's and B's. I was a Honors student, top of my classes. I was invited into Beta and National Honors Society. I only joined beta, had too much to do. But now by senior year, I keept my priorities straight, my mind clear. I couldn't have drama in my life, I had to let all the bad people out of my life. I joined duel enrollment. I tookj collage algebra and trigonometry. By the time I left school, I had 6 credits for collage. I was the FBLA President,I was a member of NSHSS,National society of high school scholars, and I debated to join Beta again(it was fun). I hoped to finish with a Honors Degree. By the end of the fall semester of senior year, I struggled to pass my biology but -----. Half way through my final year, I had my mind set. I was going to SLCC and doing my two years for business and then taking the CPA to get my certification as an accountant. If all else failed, I would've become a butcher, I'm serious.

Let's just say this, before high school I was just a kid who lost all her grandparents, felt that she wasn't good enough, I felt that I didn't belong, I was having suicidal thoughts and no one in my family knew before this. I started self-harming in 7th grade up until sophomore/junior year . It went from every night to every other day to every other week then every other month, then I just stopped with the help of being around the people who kept me sane . I was a year clean but then the thoughts came back. To this day, I still have those thoughts. I thought about telling someone from my family, but I didn't think they would of helped at the time.

So if people ask if high school changed my life, the answer is yes. It brought me and my best friends closer together. It made me smarter and stronger. I'm not that shy little girl that hides behind her dad if she got scared. I'm a young woman that is ready to face what the world has to throw at me, well thats what i told myself after guaduation. I have social anxiaty and am claustrophobic

Thanks to high school, I'm stronger(mentally), I have a close friend that I don't want to leave, I can stand up for my self and fight my own battles. I'm greatful for all that the teachers done to get me to where I am now. I am also glad that high school was never like the movies where everyone was just the perfect student.